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Blog Masakan This Week

2011-10-25T16:39:00.001+08:00

I have to admit, i'm not a good cook, especially been living with my mom lepas kawin doesn't make me good at it..hihi..ye la sebab aku berkerja waktu siang, balik dah maghrib..jadi mmg tak masak la kan. Kalau weekend pun sibuk melayan anak2 or makan kat luar..so tak masak jugak la aku..

But since i have to live on my own now with my own family, nak tak nak kena jugak masak kan? so slowly and steadily boleh la masak simple2 dish for the family. Now better sikit, sebab the boys dah besar and dah pandai makan itu ini, dulu kalau the kids still small and nak masak for 2 of us je macam effort nak masak tu terover..nak kemas lagi, etc etc..tu yg selalu takde mood nak masak.

Now, kalau rasa nak makan apa2 senang just google je..ha..berlambak2 la keluar resipi..u just name it. Apa je la nak makan ada resipi, rajin dgn tak rajin aje.

Kat sipitang ni lagi lah, their food and taste tak sama dengan tekak kita ni...nanti i write seperately about the food here...banyak food yg teringin nak makan tak available here and also some ingredients yg takde..so kena make do with what is available. And kalau teringin sangat nak makan dishes yg takde kat sini kena jugak masak..especially for the kids macam pizza, pasta, sandwiches...

So today aku nak share satu blog masakan yg selalu aku singgah cari resipi, ada yg dah dicuba, ada yang tengah tunggu dalam wishlist...the first time i stumbled upon this blog, was masa nak cari resipi about jagung..kat sini jagung mmg murah..u can get 5 btg jagung for RM5.00 only. Murah kan..

Terjumpa la resipi Ais Batu Jangung ni..tengok gambar je dah terliur2...ohhh..ahhh aku tengoknya

for recipe for this refreshing Ais Batu Jagung please do visit here for recipe

Memang blog Kak Ita "Masam Manis" ni menjadi one of my fav blog masakan..banyak resipi yg best2. And the best part tengok all the delicious pictures she took..memang sangat teruja nak cuba. Bila tengok resipi2 dan all the beautiful pictures jadi macam satu terapi pulak...hilang semua stress...

All the pictures, memang mampu melaparkan kita..ni ada satu lagi resipi yang aku nak try buat

Resipi Apam Sprite here

Blog Kak Ita ni just celebrated 1st annivesary..congrats sis.Share lagi ye resipi yg best2 ye.

U olls boleh visit Kak Ita blog Masam Manis and choose mana2 resipi yang nak dicuba...

Insyallah after this on weekly basis, I will try to blog about my choosen blog - about apa saja la yang menarik dan berjaya mecuri perhatian..be it recipes, baking, parenting, art, fashion, etc etc...

Who's There?

2011-10-19T13:47:00.000+08:00

2-3 hari ni busy ke klinik kesihatan Sipitang for check ups...
This is indeed my 1st experience seeking service & consultation kat govt clininc..so macam blurr sikit.
And yeah..this is something i don't talk about on FB wall..tak perlu kot
Only some friends and family je yg tau...and today i decided to write about it here..
I wrote nothing about my previous 3 babies..so i guess why not this time kan?

Yeah...i'm in my 2nd trimester and about 18 weeks...
My 4th pregnancies...and to be honest, its a mix feelings
Not sure how to feel bout this one...lebih kepada worried and scared sebenarnya
I guess i'm not ready for this one, but accepted it as rezeki from Allah, He knows whats the best for us.
Why? sebab..experience masa deliverkan Camelia buatkan aku rasa "i'm done with this"..tak larat rasanya nak go through one more time..pikir masa pantang lagi...hmmm

And this will be my 4th operation!
Tadi doctor tu bagitau yang Hospital Sipitang cant accept my case, sebab normally they will only take up for only 3x operation. Lagi la aku saspen...he said kena ke KK jugak...
Well.this is another issue nak pikir..kat mana nak deliver...?
Ikutkan hati aku..mmg aku nak balik KL and deliver with my gynae..tapi then pikir sebab Alief dah start Std 1 next year..takkan aku nak tinggalkan dia kat Sipitang ni for 2 months lebih kan
Kalau aku nak balik KL. mighht as well semua oun balik KL..Alief boleh start std 1 kat KL..tapi Beb pulak tertinggal kat sini..hmmm..sudahnya back to square one. Leceh jugak kan nak pindah randah...
So most probably nya deliver kat KK je la..then my mom will come over to help bb sit the kids..

Ok enough of my membebel..let see what's the little human doing inside

Baby at 18 weeks
http://www.womenshealthcaretopics.com/pregnancy_week_18.htm
By now you're feeling your baby-to-be wiggle inside you
At week 18, your baby-to-be's senses are maturing. She's able to hear sounds within her own comfortable environment, such as the sound of your heart beating, as well as external sounds, such as your voice. She may become more active for certain sounds, and you'll feel her movements. At this point in her development she's still small enough that she has plenty of room to wiggle.
Your little one is about 6 ounces and 5 to 6 inches long (crown to rump). Baby is about the size of a grapefruit.

Momies changes : All of your organs are working hard to help your baby-to-be develop, but perhaps the hardest working organ during pregnancy is your heart. Your blood volume increases by 50 percent during your pregnancy, meaning your heart has to work that much harder to pump the blood throughout your body.

Esok aku kena ke klinik lagi sekali, nak ambik glucose screen test pulak...
pagi tadi ambik urine test sugar level ada tinggi sikit..hmmm...1st time pulak ni..saspen jugak au dengar
Maybe sebab tadi aku breakfast french toast n honey..or the sweets that i took just before i went in to see the doctor.
Hopefully tomorow okla..takut la kalau ada diabetic during pregnancy ni...will drink lots of water today....

Ishh..esok kena gie klinik lagi...

Assalamualaikum...Knock Knock!! Ello..elloo

2011-10-14T16:50:00.004+08:00

Masyallah, it have been ages since i published a post in this blog.
Tahun 2011 ni pun dah masuk bulan 10..lebih kurang lagi 2 bulan, kita dah nak masuk ke 2012
Alhamdulillah, Allah masih memberi kesihatan yang baik pada ku, anak2, hubby dan family.
Rezeki yang masih mencukupi. Dan sudah pastinya 2012 akan datang ni banyak changes akan berlaku in my own family.

1st of all, sekarang aku 'bersiaran' dari seberang, menyeberangi Laut China Selatan
dah hampir setahun, we all di Sipitang,Sabah ni...since aku pun dah tak kerja dan dah tukar profession
I guess its a good decision to join Beb here in Sabah..its been almost 5 years we all menjalinkan hubungan plutonik..hihi...the kids adjusting well in school..

Me? ok la..even takde kawan kat sini but its ok..not so bad...
Tak kira dimana je kita berada dalam dunia ni as long we have our family with us..there is where our heart is kan? So this is where we called home for now...
A small town - 2hours drive from KK, by the beach and also surrounded by forest
Peaceful i can say, less hassle and ciaos, traffic jem mmg takde la...

Here are some pics taken during our recent trip balik kampung Raya baru baru ni...

Our version of this year 'MerdekaRaya'

1st post in 2010

2010-10-06T08:43:00.002+08:00

Bismillahirahmanirahim.
After so log i let this blog 'bersawang' i finally post my 1st post for this year.
Maybe its writer's block..chewah! not really la..its more to takde idea yg best for blog writing, my normal boring life and the fact that i have lost some of my semangat and self confidence.

So many things happened in meantime, and off course i'm not gonna tell everything bout it but in between i have delivered a bb girl - Bb Camelia ( now 8 months), i have became a stay home mom ( 3 months by the time i wrote this..and still struggling to survive motherhood), launched my home bis (small scale..still figuring the best way to take it to the next level..semangat lari!),celebrated 2 hari rayas, numbers of my childre n families birthdays, bla bla..

i will try to write as much as i can ( at least another way to gain my self n semangat back) well..i'm still trying to find the best time for me to write and other blog/buss updates, especially with 8 months old bb and 2 toddlers on tow..my hands are quite full. my time management sucks!

Facebook

2009-07-06T11:49:00.002+08:00

Hari ni, aku dapat invitation from HR Manager office aku untuk add jadi friend kat Facebook...selain dia ada a few lagi officemate yang dah jadi kawan aku di facebook.
Jadi bila HR manager aku invite aku..aku berpikir yang lepas ni aku kena lebih hati hati dalam berfacebooking!

Dah tentu aku tak boleh nak update status macam
" Boring kat office today!"
"Work sucks!"
"Looking for better job opportunity..sapa sapa ada vacancy kat office let me know"
" i hate my boss"
"Rasa macam nak ambik MC besok"
bla ..bla..bla..

Aku kena lebih berhati hati dalam mengupdate status dan jugak meng post apa apa komen
nanti kantoi pulak masa kat office aku sibuk post komen komen kat FB..aiyooo..mana privacy after all...hehhe..

Juga mungkin tak semua gambar gambar boleh dikongsi dgn everyone. harus ada privacy in viewing setting.
Buat aku terpikir, mungkin aku harus vanishkan link blog aku di FB..hehhe..

Aku di office mmg tak ramai kawan..dan aku jugak tak berapa minat nak buat kawan sgt di office. Cuma beberapa kerat jer yang jadi kawan sembang dan kawan makan tengahari. After work, takde aktiviti2 lain. Mmmg aku begitu dari dulu lagi..susah bila kita jadi terlalu rapat dgn kawan kawan office. Kita bukan kenal diarong ni sgt..kalau nak bercerita, kena pilig yang betul betul boleh percaya aje..kalau tak habis la cerita kita dijaja satu office..itu yg aku tak suka! Hal personal jadi gossip pulak kat office...please!

Banyak nya cuma setakat bercakap bila perlu dan bila ditanya.

Aku pernah ada sorang staff..dalam 40an. Depan kita bukan main lagi baik, tapi belakang cerita macam macam pasal aku. Dah tu asyik putar belit cerita..dgn semua org nak bercerita...Last last aku buat tak reti aje dgn dia...dan akihirnya dia pun berhenti kerja...dan sebab utama dia report kat HR sebab apa dia berhenti sebab dia tak boleh kerja dgn aku! hehhe..aku mmg tak suka betul dgn org yang muka bertalam ni..mmg dia tak kan ada dalam list kawan kawan aku...

Jadi balik ke FB...kalau aku accept HR manager aku..meaning aku kena berlakon yang aku tak selalu masuk FB..mungkin aku akan selalu tukar status kepada ..
"busy"... "Banyak kerja..aarrgghh" hehhe

BI and SPM

2009-06-09T10:14:00.002+08:00

Pagi tadi masa on the way nak pegi kerja aku dengar topic pagi tu yang discuss pasal subject BI dan SPM. Student kena lulus BI untuk lulus SPM. Dalam erti kata lain kalau fail BI fail la SPM...

Macam macam opinion org bagi kat dj radio tu..ada yang berkobar, ada yang marah, ada yang cool..mcm mcm reaksi..aku belum lagi sempat baca newspaper hari ni so aku cuma hear it over the radio je this morning..

Dan macam biasa aku pun berangan talipon radio stesen tu dan beri pendapat aku..hehhe...aku malas nak call sebenarnya..dah tentu nanti aku tergagap gagap nak cakap!

Tapi dalam hal ni aku rasa la kan...
Ok apa dgn pre-requisite camtu...
Sebab kita dah belajar english dari darjah satu lagi..dan sapa sapa yg pergi ke tadika..kita belajar english lebih awal lagi...
english dah bukan bahasa asing bagi kita..dah jadi 2nd language...
kalau syarat baru nak student lulus BI ok la tu...
Nak lulus aku rasa tak susah..kalau P7 dan P8 masih dianggap lulus kan?
Kalau F9 baru fail kan? ntah aku tak berapa sure dgn gred ni sebab nak almost 19 tahun aku tinggal kan SPM!!
Seriously, nak lulus aku rasa student kita tak de problem..lain la kalau dia nak kan credit..C6 ke atas.
kecuali student tu mmg tak belajar langsung..ada kemungkinan la fail...

Student kena ambik ni as a challenge...kena berusaha lebih sikit
jangan jadi kan this as an excuse..tak adil dan sebagainya
kena pikir panjang sikit..what will happened after SPM?
Kalau org susah..maybe tak boleh further study..terus kena cari kerja..
dgn challenege zaman sekarang ni..dgn pengetahuan BI dapat la membantu mereka dapat kerja yang ok sikit...

bila mende mende camni kita kena ambik positif jgn terus buat kesimpulan mende ni menyusahkan..
macam jugak bangsa lain..apa apa pun mereka kena dapat credit untuk BM untuk lulus SPM..ok je diaorg..aku rasa percentage yang berjaya lebih jauh banyak dari yang gagal

dan kita org melayu..bila ada syarat kena lulus BI terus marah marah..
Bahasa Melayu tetap menjadi our mother tounge tak kira apa pun dan kat mana pun...
kita kena buka minda dan lihat kedepan..

my 2 cent...

2009-06-01T11:56:00.006+08:00

My version of Jalan Jalan Cari Makan- 1

For the past 1-2 months I have experienced good and not so good food experience that I would like to share here.
As a consumer, it is important for us to pay whatever amount RM that is worth to our taste buds. Bukan setakat nak untung aje, tapi quality food jugak penting. Biar lah kita rasa puas bila makan tu.
I’m not trying to influence others with my personal judgment and taste, but something for us to think about. And please be bear in mind that this is personal view and nothing to do with advertising gimmick or etc. Lain orang lain citarasa dan taste..so tepuk dada Tanya selera.
Ok, masa Mother’s Day hari tu on 10/5/09 we and the kids went to a new restaurant in Wangsa Maju Area. It was not a planned dinner, but because secara kebetulan it was on Mother’s Day so boleh la consider Mother’s Day dinner. This restaurant located in one of the new building blocks yang kat sebelah NZ..a block belakang Naluri Medical Centre to be exact. What really made me want to tried this restaurant out was the exterior of the restautant. Nampak cosy and homely. Exterior reflects the English concept and theme with white colour being the dominant choice of colour with flowers motives.

Nama pun Restoran Cozy Place. No..this restaurant has nothing to do with other Cozys Restaurant in Ampang Park and GE Mall.

Interior pun mmg cantik, reminds me of Cameron Highland and Bukit Tinggi Colmar. It gives that feeling especially with the fireplace and the wing chair. The somewhat like a waiting area or main lounge is very homely and the big chandelier was the first things that caught my attention.

And off course, Alief yang jadi model aku, posing kat lounge area tu. This restaurant shows you the open kitchen concept, where u can actually watch how they cook your food.

Basically the interior memang nice, so now come to the food. They serve selection of all kind of menu from Western to local and also a la carte lauk lauk macam Cozy House jugak. And since this is our first time, we ordered something that we are familiar with. Since they just opened they have promotions on some of the items, so we decided to check it out. We ordered Fish & Chips for the 2 boys, Hubby ordered grilled lamb and I had the koew teow Cantonese style (all time fav). Off course for the boys air milo suam (must order drink for them). Too bad I did not take any photos of the food.

My dish arrived first, the portion was actually sikit, especially when the boys pun nak share. It was just ok for me, I tasted better Cantonese keow teow. So this one was nothing special.
Then came the fish and chips with coleslaw and French fries. The fish fillet had been goreng a bit garing for the boys, and it doesn’t tatste fresh. It have this fishy taste and smell. It was just ok for us
Hubby’s lamb came last, lama jugak we waited, after mine dish dah habis and the boys pun dah almost done eating. The portion was just nice, the lamb was nice also.
We did not stay long after we finished our dinner, sebab budak berdua tu pusing satu restaurant and went in and out of the restaurant. The bill came out to almost RM50.00, which was reasonable, but the food was just ok for us. Nothing to shout about. Maybe we should try other menu next time. If you asked me if I will consider to come again..Maybe! This place is good for family makan makan.

Alief gave his “2 thumbs up”..well not really his thumbs or rather 2 fingers up..hehhee!!

Penang Trip

2009-04-09T09:54:00.005+08:00

seriously, I'm not good in keeping this blog updated everyday or regularly.
Busy pulak kat office sejak dua menjak ni, then bila dah sampai rumah biasanya dah malam dan penat. Rasa malas betul nak buat apa apa...nak tido aje..hehhe

we went for a short trip to penang on 27/3 ari tu..i actually asked to go to penang for work. Assisting other shopping mall in penang...for the earth hour launch. The boys decided to taggeed along..so we drove up north. alif and dani well behave in the car..after our first stop and rest kat tapah kot..the boys slept sampai la ke penang...then we took ferry into the island. The fist trip to penang for the 2 boys..
aku? ntah kali ke berapa aku tak ingat..Beb..sure lagi banyak kali dia dtg ke penang..!

The one trip to penang that i remembered was the one i'm with ely and pnut. Naik bas..ely's and pnut's friend Muzammil jadi our host and tour guide. He brought us around shop and eat at the fav eateries in penang..

things that i like about penang is the old colonial buildings and shops. masih in good condition and cantik. But driving in penang can be a headache..sebab jalan kat town macam sama aje with the look alike buildings...

because i went there for work, we did not really spend time touring and eat all time penang favourites rojak,keow teow, cendol, nasi kandar. And furthermore with the kids..mmm..susah sikit nak makan at these places...

we stay at naza hotel penang..ok la this hotel, just renovated.

The Lobby

Pool side

Little Dani

February

2009-02-21T12:37:00.006+08:00

Bulan februari dah abis, dah masuk bulan march...
Semalam aku dengar lagu Februari dari Gigi di radio...best jugak lagu ni..
Februari adalah bulan yang agak sibuk dan sarat dengan special dates i.e birthdays, annivesary and so on...

7 February - annivesary aku yang ke-4..baru lagi, banyak lagi nak kena adjust dan belajar. Obviously marriage life is different from single life. Ada ketika aku rasa mahu balik diserap balik ke alam bujang, melepak with friends late teh tarik session, makan keow teow kerang kat uptown, nonton movie midnite, menonton konsert akhir AF atau any award show ramai ramai sambil makan makan- ketawa dan menjerit..seronok betul..bangun lambat, pegi our usual hang out place...bla bla..

But nothing aff all that i mentioned, compared to the existence of my companion,teman borak tak kira malam atau siang, tak payah pening kepala pikir sapa nak teman makan atau tengok wayang.

Seronok bila the kids buat kelakar dan talk nonsense. Kiss and hug them..lagi seronok when they kiss and hug you back..to hold their small hands!

Well this is life...a friend told me 'A marriage make someone life balance'..tepat sungguh. Tapi aku juga masih perlukan kawan kawan dan merindui mereka lebih lebih lagi bila terdengar lagu lagu favorite atau yang ada cerita dan rahsia disebalik lagu, tersenyum kerang bila teringat cerita cerita kelakar.
To my hubby...looking forward for more good and strong years together. Remember to always stay in love and dont forget to have fun!

13 februari - Ini adalah hari pertama aku secara official nya bertemu dan bercakap dengan hubby pada tahun 2004. Pada valentine's eve kami bersama sorang lagi teman minum minum kopi di klcc...pertemuan biasa yang akhirnya membawak aku bejumpa lagi pada keesokan harinya atas sebab kerja..bersama sorang lagi teman..kami membawa goreng pisang sebagai buah tangan...berborak dan membuat sikit kerja sampai ke waktu makan malam...kemudian aku bawa dia jumpa kawan kawan pompuan aku yang lain d uncle don..sampai ke pukul 2 pagi. Habis di situ saja..tiada pangillan susulan.
Berjumpa lagi 2 hari selepas itu di office..dan jumpa lagi untuk makan malam, dan seterusnya makan tengahari, supper dan asyik mahu berjumpa..hehhe..terasa ingin selalu dekat..macam ada kuasa magnet yang cukup kuat menarik kami closer to each other...and the rest is history la kan..hehhe..

12 & 20 Feb - birthday 2 adik adik ku. Sorang yang ke 17 dan sorang yang ke 30. Semoga mencapai apa saja yang di hajati dalam hidup. Dan suksess..suksesss!! Tiada sambutan meriah..hanya dengan kehadiran cup cakes!

24 Feb- Hari ulangtahun ke 2 my little Dani. dah 2 tahun si dani...it fell on Tuesday. I took half day leave..and we brought the kids to watch movie Upin & Ipin kat klcc. Fisrt time for both dani and alif... Alhamdulillah..stay dalam cinema sampai abis..well lagi 5 minit nak abis..Dani dah boring and dah ajak balik...
Alif pulak nak pegi toilet..big business..so no choice la kan..terpaksa keluar. But kalau they all behave camni..sure we can watch movie lagi..Maybe Madagascar 3..kalau ada...

28 Feb - we did little makan makan for family sempena birthday dani. Thanks to my sis in law yang buat choc cake with wonder pets and dani's image. Dani was very happy..later he was very busy playing with his present..the bus! Dancing kat depan then ke belakang..we all yang tak tahan with the sound..so bising. Bila beli hadiah kat dani..we have also buy Alif one present..nanti karang mengamuk pulak! Tips ye to parents..hehe. Seronok dapat gather all family..plus dapat makan laksa terengganu my mom..best! lama tak makan ni...

Next need to plan for Alif's birthday pulak in June..he will turn 4 this year..

So well that's my February...looking forward for next year's February pulak...
And february jugak aku dah pening dengan cerita politik..dah malas nak ambik tahu!

Hidup macam roda

2009-02-05T15:11:00.002+08:00

memang la hidup macam roda kan?
kejap kat atas, kejap kat bawah
tapi selalunya kat bawah macam lama aje
kat atas selalunya sekejap.

baru sekejap merasa naik camry
dah terpaksa bagi balik
bila kat bawah ni..macam macam kutukan kita dapat
bila kat atas jarang pulak orang puji
ramai lagi nak tengok bila la nak kebawah

ini la hakikat hidup macam roda
ini la hakikat orang orang yang suka berbalah
inilah hakikat yang terpaksa ditelan orang orang perak!
ini lah dunia politik malaysia zaman sekarang
bila kuasa dan wang jadi tuhan...

Good luck to all org perak..

Nota Kuku: takde kata kata boleh aku komen pasal kes ni. Hanya boleh geleng kepala

Apa ke hal?

2009-02-03T15:10:00.002+08:00

Entahlah..sekarang ni bila tgk news mesti cerita politik yang jadi headlines.
Bukan apa, isu isu yang tak membina minda ni macam cendawan tumbuh lepas hujan.
Aku tak la follow sangat cerita cerita politik ni..malas nak komen.
Orang yang pandai politik lagi ramai kat luar sana yang boleh beri komen yang lebih bernas. Banyak malam aku just tumpang dengar aje cerita cerita news dari dapur kecik ku sambil basuh pinggan. Semalam aku tengok news sambil duduk kat sofa
Pertama kes main tarik tali pasal exco kat perak. Cerita ni pun dah makan dekat 5 minit..very the big issue! Kedua, keluar pulak cerita tabika kemas kat penang kena rantai. Memang la sedih tengok bebudak tu..tapi kalau dah sekolah kena rantai, balik la rumah dulu sampai mende ni settle..cikgu pun tak payah la buka tikar duduk bawah pokok di bawah terik panas matahari sambung kelas hari tu sampai pukul 11.30am!! perlu ker? Ni semua nak menimbulkan propaganda.

Aku tak belah mana mana pihak..aku neutral. Masa pilihanraya lepas aku pun tak turun mengundi sebab tempat aku mengundi pun kaki aku tak pernah jejak. Kat area bukit mana ntah kat bentong. Yess..aku dah tukar alamat ke melawati..so kena la make sure nanti alamat aku mengundi kat belah belah sini.

Ok..back to the story. Nampak cam channel tv tu pro satu parti tu je. Di buatnya cerita semua berbaur berat sebelah..dan isu isu yang tak membina.

Habis pasal kes tabika tu..keluar pulak cerita MB Selangor go ahead dengan projek Carrefour kat Kota Damansara. Alkisahnya baru aku tau semalam dari news..penduduk setempat tak setuju carrefour tu dibina kat area diaorg sebab khuatir gejala sosial akan menjadi jadi dan bertambah teruk! mmmm..seriusly this is my first time dengar orang berpikir bahawa dengan adanya carrefour masalah sosial akan timbul? Bukan apa pelik jugak bila ada yang berpendapat cam gitu. Bukan kah dengan ada nya carrefour nanti dapat memberi opportunity kerja pada org setempat jugak? Dengan ekonomi yg tak stabil ni boleh la org secure some jobs. Tapi again to relate social problem dengan hypermarket macam tak masuk akal. Sapa la yang sell the idea to orang orang yang pegang sepanduk berprotes semalam. Dan tentu hypermarket target group is family and working adults. Budak2 remaja sekarang mana nak melepak dan berdating kat hypermarket..tak cool kan? hehhe..mungkin ada la tapi takde la sampai alasan masalah social akan meningkat tu boleh diguna pakai...hehhe...

Dengan menghalang pembinaan hypermarket tidak la memberi kesan yang mendadak kepada masalah social yang memang dari zaman aku remaja sampai la ni tak abis abis. Banyak lagi resources lain yang menyumbang pada masalah ni. Tengok aje la kesan from borderless connection via internet, influence from MTV, U Tube..mcm mcm lagi..tak terpikir pulak aku hypermarket termasuk dalam senarai hitam aku hehhe..

apa ke hal?

Dikejutkan singa!

2009-01-30T13:53:00.002+08:00

Pagi ni aku dikejutkan dengan 2 ekor singa..
Berlari ke longkang semua mimpi dan angan angan aku pagi tadi
Terkejut dengan bingit bunyi drum..aku macam baru bangun tidur
masih mengosok gosok mata aku bangun dari kerusi yang tak berapa empuk
Orang kata singa singa ni datang untuk beri semangat dan tuah nasib yang baru
Untuk halau semua hantu syaitan dan anasir anasir jahat yang ada.
Aku pasti jugak syaitan dan anasir jahat keliling aku atau dalam badan aku pun mencicit lari bila nampak singa ni.
dan aku memang hope for better year. Lagipun tahun ni tahun lembu..tahun aku.
Upacara singa ni tamat dengan bingit api mercun.
dan aku semacam dapat semangat baru..macam selama kat office aku tido
jadi dengan semangat aku pegi isi perut dengan roti telur, terus balik ke office
sambung facebook dan post di blog.
Kali ini dengan lebih semangat!!

woo hoo

2009-01-28T14:55:00.005+08:00

Woo Hoo!!
Malas nya nak gie kerja ari ni...after 2 hari cuti chinese new year.
And Woo Hoo! Jalan tak jam langsung..dalam 30 min dah sampai office. Compare to almost 1 hour kalau ari biasa. Begitu indahnya pagi ku! Tak terkata seronoknya driving dari melawati ke subang tanpa sebarang gangguan. Hanya mereka yang faham saje akan turut merasa kagum dan teruja!!

Tapi yang nyata, ini hanya la sementara...sementara sekolah masih cuti, org masih dalam mood raya..aku akan merindui saat saat begini....hehhee.

Masuk office pun hanya tinggal mereka mereka yang tak menyambut raya cina aje...hampir separuh jugak la office ni yang kosong. Kecuali area work station aku yang semuanya melayu..so work station kitaorg aje la yang happening!!!
pagi pagi lagi pukul 9..sorang tu dah bukak tv3.com tgk ajl 23 yang dia miss...repeat hari senin ari tu pun dia miss...kuat jugak volume dia...sabar aje la..rasa macam ari sabtu pulak hari ni...sorang lagi siap makan nasi lemak dgn teh o lagi kat work station dia, yang lagi 2 org aku tak tau samada they all buat kerja atau buat buat sibuk! and aku dah melepak kat facebook dan browsing website website & blog blog yang biasa aku singgah! hehhe...memamg tak de mood kerja langsung...

Tapi walaupun camtu..aku tetap seronok ari ni sebab..ada org org kat office yang takde ari ni dan sampai ke minggu depan, terutama org org yang membuat kan aku rimas, lemas...org org yang secara tak langsung memberi kan aku tempias tenaga negatif everytime they all around...at least ari ni semua orang bercakap satu bahasa atau dua bahasa yang aku paham. takde bahasa bahasa asing yang membingit kan telinga aku! woo Hoo...

and aku boleh ambik masa ni untuk plan menu masak hujung minggu ni..dan coming 2nd birthday dani on 24/2 ni hehhe. At the moment rasa excited macam aku excited tengok cupcake kat bawah ni...

Raya Gong Xi

2009-01-28T12:08:00.002+08:00

bersempena Gong Xi Fa Cai..aku dapatla berehat dari kerja selama 2 hari. hari sabtu dan ahad kena stand-by so..literally kerja la tu kan. Tapi sebab kan si alif demam teruk start dari malam sabtu..aku tak bercuti mana pun. hanya di rumah melayan orang sakit.

Korang yang tak de anak kecik ni maybe susah nak imagine camne stress nya jaga budak kecik time sakit. Yang buat kan aku stress sebab the biggest concern is nak dia baik cepat..and risau kalau demam melarat. dah la sekarang dengan wabak denggi dan kunya...bila demam panas aje on and off aku saspen.

Si alif and dani pun baru jer nak recover pun selsema. Si dani pulak dari kena excema early january bersambung ke demam and selsema..kira satu bulan ni the 2 kids tak berapa sihat. Tapi sebab diaorg ni budak budak...asal baik sikit aje, seronok nak main...

Bila bab selsema yang buat aku tension bila dgr hidung diaorg berbunyi bunyi dek hingus..and the problem is dua dua tak reti let the hingus out..asyik di sedut masuk balik aje..so the only solution is to suck all the hingus with the nose pump....and here is the best part...si dani akan meraung menangis bila aje nak start pump. tak la sakit sebenarnya..but being kid..takut agaknya...and sebab nak baik cepat we have to suck jugak even dia meraung raung. Macam kena dera la...nasib baik neighbour aku tak dtg ketuk pintu tanya. Sampai merah merah muka and berpeluh peluh nangis. kena pekak kan telinga jugak...at least 3 x sehari.

Si alif pulak bila bab sakit..mmg tersangat la susah nya nak makan ubat. Terpaksa pegang tangan kaki, nak kena paksa makan ubat. Puas nak memujuk. Ditutup rapat mulut dia..langsung tak nak bukak..camne nak buat tu? last resot, picit hidung dan masuk kan ubat..bukanla kat hidung hehhe. masuk mulut la. And bila badan dia tak nak accept ubat tu sebab dia banyak sgt meronta ronta, sometimes dia memuntahkan balik ubat tu..aduss...I really hate this part right here la!

Nak mop lantai, rendam baju seluar and the affected area. Kena das das membebel dari aku se-round dua. Bayangkan la kalau nak makan 3 x sehari...rutin ini la yang terpaksa kena repeat over over sampai la baik sakit. kalau demam panas masukkan ubat pungkok je..tapi bila batuk,selsema, dan lain lain nak tak nak kena jugak makan ubat.

That's how i spent my 2 days cuti kat rumah...after countless bebelan aku, shouting, muntah, sedutan hidung..rumah pun dah macam tongkang pecah...really tired dah...tapi sempat jugak aku masak 2-3 round. Sebab alif demam we all dok kat rumah ajela...

Sapa sapa yang take long leave..happy holiday. ramain lagi yang cuti sampai weekend.Jangan makan limau mandarin banyak banyak sangat.

Gong Xi

A dose of stress?

2009-01-21T11:30:00.005+08:00

This is my little dose of stress i have to take every morning..5 times a week!!

And this another dose in the evening..5 times aweek.
Sorry gambar sikit blurrrr..nampak tak the red lights? Punya la panjang jam!!
This particular evening aje aku stuck for almost 1 hour dari tesco cheras hingga ke tesco ampang..lol!!
Agak agak kalau jam teruk camni sure ada accident ke apa apa..that the problem with MRR2 ni very the unpredictable one...
and only after 1 hour baru la aku tau kenapa jam begitu teruk sekali...
ada satu lori ni tersadai kat tepi jalan....!!! itu aje...dan aku agak by the time aku sampai ke lokasi lori tersadai tu..jam nya dah panjang sampai ke subang.

Ini la everyday stress yg aku kena 'ambik' everyday nak ke tempat kerja.
Dari melawati ke ampang point aje kena beratur dalam jam for 1/2 jam...memamg teruk jam kat situ..bila duke fully operate nanti lagi teruk aku rasa..

dan tak ke kau bengang..bila kau terpakasa tenangkan diri kau sendiri dalam kereta dgn mendengar lagu lagu di radio,mengunyah kudapan, atau berangan..cuba positive dalam keadaan yang tegang ...always stay calm...dan tiba tiba kau dengar siren polis...tergendala sekejap angan! mesti ada emergency kan...

Hah! ada la org org yang rasa diarog ni vip mintak lalu..merentas kesesakan dan potong que kereta kereta yang dah lama panas...selamba je redah jam dgn polis! aarrgggh..geram aku...! rakyat jelata bersusah payah meredah kesesakan hari hari nak cari rezeki..yang org atas atas ni apa peduli kan? jam ke tak jam ke..they all tak rasa stress yang we all rasa..masa they all buat semua highway and link apa apa ni..tak ke terpikir kat akal diaorg yang pengguna jalan raya akan berganda?
apasal tak buat lane banyak sikit? takpayah la buat byk sgt intersection..dah la jadi bottle neck sana sini...iissssh... aku tulis ni pun tension!

Alif's first day at school

2009-01-20T10:29:00.003+08:00

5 jan 2009

Alif started his first day at kindie. Just a school opposite my mom's house
Just beberapa tapak. Senang..nak hantar and nak ambik everyday
he was excited i guess..me and hubby as well.
He is 3.5 years and i just want him to make new friends and have fun. At least dia will be occupied for half day.
So seronok when he showed me his first artwork "The Lion Face"

everyday sure ada artwork yang dia bawak balik from school. 2nd day buat ulat bulu, lepas tu aku dah lost track!
Lega jugak sebab dia ok..and adjusted himself very well with the other kids. And he's having fun..that's the bottom line
Macam satu escapism kat alif. Dah besar anak aku...hehhe
Banyak tahun lagi nak sekolah ni..ada approx another 3 more years before masuk standard 1...

Masa nak pilih sekolah mana pun banyak jugak choice sebenarnya.Banyak kindie yang offer macam macam, and to be honest registration fees boleh sampai ribu jugak.
But off course as a parents we want the best for our kids kan? And since alif baru aje 3.5 years so aku rasa ok aje kalau masuk kan dia kindie yang bukan la nama nama yang gah sgt mcm Smart Readers la, Qdees la..etc etc, let him just learn the basic and have fun.

And nanti kalau dah nak pindah nun jauh kat sana, kena consider kindie lain pulak kan. more biggers decisons have to be made in future pasal anak anak ni.

Dah tahun 2009

2009-01-14T12:12:00.004+08:00

Ari ni dah masuk 14 hari tahun 2009. Masih 'bau kedai'. Aku tak pasti dengan org lain tapi aku masih merasakan bahang bunga api malam tahun baru. Mungkin tidak semacam tahun tahun sebelumnya...tahun kebelakang ini cuma gegaran bunga api yang aku dgr sayup sayup atau mungkin itu imaginasi aku lepas aku tgk pak lah countdown kat dataran merdeka!! mungkinjugak

30 minit sebelum 2008 melabuhkan tirainya..aku menaip sms "sweet & simple" untuk semua teman teman yang memang selalu dekat di hati...to be honest saat ini aku memang teringat kat korang semua...kat mana la korang malam tahun baru ni!

Terus memori daun pisang menerjah ke kepala otak aku...memang tak dapat aku dan aku pasti sahabat ku juga lupakan ialah sambutan tahun baru menyambut 2001 di persekitaran klcc. Terjadinya sambutan ini adalah hasil kekalutan dan kegawatan sambutan tahun baru 2000..Y2K. Ntah macamana dan ntah apa yang aku pikirkan masa tu..sangup meredah lautan manusia di klcc. Aduh...ampun..menyesal pulak. Keghairahan dan mood tahun baru terus tengelam dalam lautan manusia...terus rasa nak balik. Aku dan beberapa teman yang jugak tidak berpikiran waras...sudahnya, kami berjalan kaki mencari jalan pulang, sebab tak sanggup lagi bersesak dan sesak napas dengan bau bauan berebut transport balik ke shah alam!!! ye u oll..shah alam... tapi kami hanya mampu berjalan hingga ke HRC..hehhe..and seriusly memory aku selepas tu dah deleted..tak de dalam kotak memory aku...lupa terus..hehhe

jadi selepas itu aku berazam tidak lagi akan ke klcc atau mana mana public gahtering hanya untuk melihat bunga api yang 15 minit itu..the best way is buat gathering sendiri, jemput kawan kawan, makan2, minum2, borak2, kira sampai 10 dan jerit!!! Dan yang paling best..tak payah bersusah payah perah otak cari jalan balik dalam lautan manusia dibawah sana!

Jadi la hasilnya sambutan 2001 yang akan terus jadi memori tahun baru yang tak akan we all lupakan. Takde la best sgt, its just that we have a lot of fun and lot of sshhhh! stories. All AMAB frens and partners were there, kecuali aku. Namun aku dah terbiasa kena tinggal. Kawan kawan yang menyinggah pun ramai jugak dan our peformer pada malam tu yang aku dah lupa nama dia..tapi ada iras tina turner dan ning baizura..hehhe.

Semua tu dah pun berlalu..dan sekarang after 8 years, aku di depan TV nonton Oprah. Cerita pasal tom cruise..sambil lipat kain yang dah berhari aku cuba lipat. Alief dan Dani dah lama masuk alam mimpi. Beb pulak dengan his usual teh tarik session ( dapat juga hidu udara tahun baru). Aku sorang dgn handphone di tangan, teringat semua memori tahun baru dan merindui teman teman dan cerah bunga api. Hanya sms jadi pengganti diri.

Tak sempat nak buat azam..bila bila pun boleh buat azam baru kan. Tahun ini aku setahun lagi tua..
banyak yang aku nak dan hajat kan!
Masih banyak yang tak lengkap..harap dapat lengkapkan tahun ni.
Banyak lagi yang aku nak cakapkan tahun ni..harap dapat cakap separuh pun dah ok
banyak yang aku nak buktikan, harap dapat cluenya
Banyak lagi buku nak baca, dan ada yang masih tak sampai mukasurat satu..harap aku tak beli lagi buku baru
Banyak lagi resipi yang aku nak try, buku resipi dah satu rak.
kena lebih banyak sabar..asyik hilang aje.
Banyak lagi lemak lemak degil dan tepu yang aku nak lenyapkan...asyik buat lemak baru aje!!!
Banyak lagi ilmu yang aku nak belajar..ilmu dunia dan akhirat.
Banyak lagi kasih sayang dan cinta aku nak curahkan pada suamiku. Tak pernah sikit
Banyak lagi masa dan sayang diminta dari alief dan dani...Aku lagi banyak sayang nak bagi diaorg...
Makin sikit jugak masa aku dgn mak pak aku! Masih banyak tak terbalas..harap dapat balas apa yang termampu..

Eh..ni bukan azam ker? Banyak je..
Selamat Tahun Baru!

Cuti Cuti Malaysia- Taiping

2008-11-04T10:28:00.011+08:00

Wow...after a long break from blogging, i wanted to write something about this place that we went on our way back to Kedah for hari raya. This is my first time in Taiping, and i have very little expectation of this 'small' town. Very rare i read in newspaper or saw on tv what is Taiping all about. Well..except for the night safari in Zoo Taiping.

The boys in the car..stop kat R&R for breakfast.

So since we reached Taiping tol at about 930am so we thought is still early to continue our journey straight to Alor Setar..so we made a de-tour to Taiping instead.
With no specific plan in hand we just drove into the taiping town. We wanted to find a place to re-fresh and for the kids to strectch and makan, pusing pusing town cari place to chill..tak jumpa. To my surprise..besar jugak town taiping.

We just drove towards the Zoo and Mount Maxwell..this is also where the Taiping Garden is..memang cantik jalan kat sini with all the old tress..memang very tranquil and sejuk..sebab dia kat dengan area bukit. Then we saw this one signage to Kamalodge..so we thought we check it out.

When we 1st drove in the lodge we saw a swimming pool which is perfect for the kids. I terus suka the place. The swimming pool score 5 star from me already. When we went into the lobby..we like the whole place even more. Its just a small lobby..but feels like home. we like it..so we took half day rate..they charge us RM100 ok what kan? with a comfortable place to rest before we head north to alor star. Such an ease..

alief start nak check out the pool

the kids swimming pool

Lobby

Lobby

Even the room pun just nice..tak kisah sgt the 2 twin beds coz we just going to be here till evening. Clean and yang best banyak natural light and green.

Here's some pics of the boys enjoying their time in the swimming pool. Tapi 1 thing..this swimming pool tak suitable for baby 1 yr below sebab dia takde baby pool yang shallow tu. Even this pool pun takat pinggang Alief yang 3 tahun tu..and ada some part of this pool air dia takat chest alief..so memang parents kena turun sekali to monitor tak boleh let the kids by themselves. My little dani memang kalau let him stand in the water tu air dia takat dada so memang tak safe..especially the boys ni excited sgt dalam pool..sudah nya kena la pegang all the time. Maybe its a good idea for the management have to have the shallow baby pool for small babies..

But all in all..it was a good half day stay..time we all kat sini pun tak ramai guest so lagi syok. We haven't had the chance to try their restaurant sebab masa ni puasa lagi. But i personally think this is a good place to singgah next time you in Taiping. And this place is great for a short family weekend gateaway..tak jauh from KL..approx 2.5 hours gitu..and you can bring the kids to the nearby zoo..the park.
This also a good place for small friends and family gathering.

even can check out their night zoo. We will definitely plan to come back for a short trip..

For those who wish to check out this place.. take exit Taiping selatan and drive into town Taiping..you will come to a traffic light junction betul betul depan the white prison..( on your right)..this is a landmark you cant miss..
Just head straight to zoo taiping and tak lama after this traffic light junction about less than 1km you can see the sign Kama lodge already! very easy and very near... I lost the brochure..so i cant recall the address and contact no. So good luck!!

Say What?

2008-09-25T01:28:00.002+08:00

after a hot and sweaty walk from my HQ office in CTbank this afternoon, i decided to stopover kat ampang park sat..ramai jugak org kat sini last minute shopping raya. Then ada dance show light light aje la...i told my self "Dont but anything..dont buy anything" that was my mantra la as i walked around.
My mantra almsot slipped out of my mouth when a shop signage stopped me and my heart beat faster..chewahh..suspen ni...this shop on the 1st floor sells leather goods and such..and right smack in the centre front of this shop there's this one signage that you can never miss.
"Sesiapa tidak boleh menjual barangan yang berharga lebih murah dari kami"!!! or something like that...tak sempat nak ambik gambar..but that's how i remembered what the signage said....
Nak tergelak pun ada tapi aku just senyum je la dalam hati...my questions is....is this a statement or a threat!! hehhe maknanya this shop claimed that nobody else in M'sia sell cheaper than them OR a warning that nobody dare to sell cheaper than them or else...??? confius jugak aku kejap...takut pulak nak masuk.kedai ni.hehhe

maybe ni marketing strategy diaorg la kot to say that their products are the chepaest in the country..but very brave and daring of them to put this signage(mcm iklan mawi pulak heheh)...hehhe

What say you? Kata kata mu?

Who's out?

2008-09-22T15:55:00.002+08:00

And so you heard... the Korean team was been eliminated from the race last week. Now left with 9 teams....

And House dah abis season 3.....eh now season 3 kan? last week monday was the last episode...i missed the last episode (part 1) but luckily managed to watched part 2 last week ( kalau ada the kids memang selalu miss House ni...tido kan the boys at 9pm)luckily last monday the kids slept at my mom's. Quite a sad ending for me with the death of Amber,and again this season ended with House lying on the hospital bed.

Other than these 2 series...i hardly watched yang lain lain..i like Grey's anatomy but i always missed the time..tak boleh nak register dalam otak aku. Aku dah missed a lot on Desperate Hwives..but new season ni mcm best! will try if i can watch on every tuesday tak silap... Nip & Tuck is another fav series of mine jugak...
Believe it.aku tak tgk prion break! Yupp..i did not...so i dont quite get it when people are talking about the characters! But i will try to watch the new season ni...

And tonite dont forget to watch Pepaya!! Alief's favourite series....hehhe

8 more days!

2008-09-22T15:18:00.003+08:00

As i wrote this, lagi 8 hari all muslim will be celebrating Raya Aidilfitri. Dah hujung hujung ni memang mood kerja dah zero! dah mood nak cuti raya. Sahur pun dah malas nak bangun...and semua dok sibuk penuhkan permintaan bukak posa during this last week. I will be on leave starting from 26 ni..ari friday! yahoo...i have another 3 more working days to go..and i will be back to office on the 9/10...
This year we will be in Alor Setar to celebrate Raya with my mom in laws and all my ipar..Preparation raya this year biasa aje..shopping raya semua dah settle even before puasa lagi..ala kadar aje la..the boys got one pair of baju melayu each..this year they'll wearing green! Memandangkan baju melayu will only be weared couple of hours in the morning..beli yang biasa biasa aje...after family photo session, tukarla uniform lain pulak...for boys senang, got them new pants and shirts and t-shirts dah ok dah.

As for me and Hubby..kita memang takde warna tema la but both of us dah prepare brown colour baju..in case nak pakai warna sama!! hehhe...i bought cheap baju kurung that i can wear till 2nd raya..and for evening visiting session cukup la with some almost raya blouse concept. Other than that...nothing la maybe some raya presents for my mom in law..basically this year terasa sikit kurang meriah preparation raya..i dont know if i'm the only one yang rasa camni. I think sebab kita agak berhati hati bila nak spend and advertisement raya pun tak banyak kat tv this year.

Biasa la the kids la yang seronok..but my 2 boys still small kan they would not really understand..and they might even not remember pun..cuma they will feel seronok bila dapat jumpa all cousins and play. And this is like a short break la balik kampung.

I always remember my Raya days back in Dungun, Terengganu especially when i was still single la..dapat makan all my fav dishes like nasi dagang, nasi minyak, tapai pulut, ketupat palas, nasi impit, kuah kacang...isshh best! i think basically raya dishes kat mana pun lebih kurang sama la...mesti ada rendang...dah lapar ni! After makan and family photo session we will go visit all my aunty's house around the same area, sampai la ke petang..then petang we will normally lepak kat beach...makan kopok gondeh..(we always called it kopok gondeh..but maybe nak comercialise kan..jadi la keropok lekor..)ni yang paling best..original taste with the sweet & spicy chilli sauce. And if you are lucky they will also sell seafood celup tepung..fresh seafood from the sea! Since my arwah nenek takde rasa macam tak best sangat raya..every year pun sama aje la...talking bout my arwah nenek whom i called "Cik" i will never forget her nasi goreng..i dont always like and appreciate her nasi goreng back then..sebab just nasi goreng kosong with pieces of ikan goreng..and looked so boring. Kekadang makan jugak, but i dont really like it...but after she passed away, everytime my mom made the same nasi goreng i mesti nak makan...and only now i can appreciate that nasi goreng..sedap jugak sebenarnya!

Another thing that i remember was this jeruk mangga/pelam that my late nenek used to do! memang sedap giloss..masa i was pregnant with my 2nd bb, teringat pulak jeruk mangga ni...so my mom la jadi mangsa buat jeruk ni...best betul! Our family makan this jeruk with keropok keping! U should try it..nanti kalau my mom buat lagi i will paste the picture here!

Even now, i'm married and dah 2 kali i celebrated Raya with my in laws...tapi perasaan sedih malam raya and pagi raya tu sure ada..especially in the morning, tak dapat nak cium tangan mama and papa! for almost 32 years that was my raya morning ritual and routine, so bila for the 2 rounds of raya kat tempat orang rasa sedih la sikit and i miss my nasi dagang! hehhe
Anyway...i will be away with my beloved hubby, alief and little dani..it will always be seronok and exciting..especially nak tengok the kids. It will be a long journey back to kedah...but looking forward for my mom-in law ketupat palas and rendang

A very happy Aidlifitri to all my frens..mintak maap dan ampun for all my wrong doings, kalau ada terasa hati, terkasar bahasa...hope everybody have a safe journey balik kampung...and to Beb...sepuluh jari ku susun mintak maap sekiranya ada kata kata ku yang menyinggung perasaan, gerak badan yang tak berapa nak berkenan, bermasam muka kadang kadang, sekali sekala merajuk, terlupa nak buat kopi, tak sempat nak mengemas etc etc...i'm sorry!Hamba ni hanya manusia biasa yang banyak kelemahan dan tak lari dari buat kesilapan. I love you and tak sabar dah nak cuti ni...

salam

Life

2008-09-17T05:17:00.003+08:00

Ok la enough of The Amazing Race...
Few things that caught my attention yesterday..off course no 1 was the 16 sept drama to set a new government. I have very little say about this becoz politic is not my favourite topic..but as a Malaysian,this politikus drama and self acclaimed dah jadi mcm over the top pulak..One side tried been trying very hard to be no1.whether its really for the people's sake or of his own agenda ( God knows) and another side tried very hard to win people's heart by going down track and every month petrol price revision. The fact is..the people of Malaysia getting tired of just talk and no walk!People started to feel the pinch of the bad economic situation..and this will get worse..especially for the middle to low income..and that means majority of us, me, you and most of the people that i know. We have to watch every RM and cents, spend more time at home ( Astro la buat duit) pirated CD will make a comeback ( cheaper to buy compared to original and GSC gold class movies!,)lesser trip to the malls, bla bla bla..., takde cuti cuti luar malaysia lagi..

All the people hoping that the governemnt can help to reduce the burden by providing good services to the rakyat. I.e public transport..baru la sekarang ni bila PM turun padang nak ambik this thing seriously..but hope for nothing for another 3 years kot. Berasak asak dalm train,and got high with armpit perfumes,semua have to bare with this lor..too bad people! Cuba all these politikus drive during the peak hours to work..tengok sendiri jam camne..but they dont care jam ke tak jam..they will sail trough..thanks to the police escort la..sakit ati tak? we been driving like tortoise to work everyday..and suddenly you have to make way for this people to drive through...!

Did i said this is not my favorite topic? hehe..

Secondly, watch the news last night about a girl aged about 16 was kidnap, killed and burnt!Ayoh yoh...and the suspect age between 16-22 years old. What is more furustrating to know that this girls was a A student and the kidnappers asked for RM33k as a ransom. The family paid without knowing that their daughter dah mati!
See..people are desperate for money..they will do anything for money. But apa la budak budak 16 yrs-22 yrs ni nak buat dgn duit byk tu? According to the news semalam, the family knew the suspects!
Nowadays, tak boleh nak percaya la kat sapa sapa even your own friends/family members/colleagues/neighbours. Takut dan rasa tak selamat, how life is worthless to some people. Tu lah bila syaitan dah menguasai akal dan pikiran kita..kita dah tak boleh nak control jiwa kita..dah jadi tak waras. Ingat lah membunuh manusia adalah antara satu dosa besar! Bayangkan budak 16 tahun tu boleh buat this kind of thing..mcm mana la perasaan their parents! anak yang di kandung 9 bulan, dijaga dan ditatang dari kecik dengan harapan agar anak jadi org yang berguna..hancur in just a seconds. Me being a parent now..worried camne la future anak anak kita nanti dalam lagi 5-10 years from now...bukannya boleh nak duduk bawah ketiak mak all the time. Nauzubillah...tu la bila manusia dah jadi binatang...tak pakai otak!

sentiasa la ingat diri kita dan orang orang terdekat dgn kita always berhati hati.
Jaga lidah, jaga mata, jaga bahasa, jaga nafsu, ingat mak bapak kita, sayang anak anak dan pasangan kita, hormati org org tua dan rakan sekerja. Jangan berpikiran singkat..ingat setiap problem mesti ada cara penyelesaian..tak semestinya bila bunuh dan merompak masalah akan selesai! Lagi banyak masalah timbul lepas tu ada..
Alhamdullilah, Allah masih sayangkan kita semua dan diberikan badan dan akal yang sihat dan waras.

The Amazing Race Asia 3 -cont-

2008-09-12T06:18:00.014+08:00

The Team this season...well..as been said particularly you have to be good on tv to be the contestant..hehhe..i have nothing against them but sometimes you want to see the real people given chance to race as well..the real asian.!

Ok la team Thailand - beauty quenns
Natalie & Pailin

25 year old Pailin Rungratanasunthorn was the first runner up in 2006 Miss Thailand Universe and represented her country as Miss Thailand Earth 2006 as well.

As for her good friend Natalie Glebova, the 26-year-old actually was a Miss Universe. Natalie took home the gleaming crown and title from the competition held in Bangkok, Thailand in 2005. The Russian Canadian beauty originally from Tuapse, Russia represented Canada in her winning event and is the second Canadian to claim the title.

It is no wonder that beauty pageants are part of their blood, having met in the 2006 Miss Thailand Universe pageant and becoming fast friends after that. Pailin was also one of Natalie's bridesmaids when she married Thailand's highest ranked tennis player, Paradorn Srichaphan, in November 2007.

But beauty is not the only thing that links the Thailand team together. Both have acute business sense as they are running their own business. Pailin's company makes toys, t-shirts and gifts for sale online, while Natalie's company sells beauty products across Thailand.

Team 2- Sam & Vince Hong Kong ( best friends)

Both started out as teachers but in their spare time, one is a master of words while the other plays with words. Meet Vince Matthew Chung, the former primary school teacher turned full time comedian cum host, and his best bud Samuel Wu, a university lecturer who ranks as one of the top players on the online word game, Prolific.

For those wondering, Prolific is a word puzzle much like the classic Boggle game and yes, this shows how quick thinking the duo, who make up Team Hong Kong, can be. Having met three years ago while working in Hong Kong, the 32-year-olds became fast friends due to similar passions in a variety of things, from acting, hosting, stand-up comedy, and most importantly, partying.

This also will not be the first time that the friends have participated in a competitive event together. Vince once made it as a finalist in the first ever nationwide stand-up comedy competition, "The Funniest Person in Hong Kong

Team 3 Neena & Amit -India (eliminated 1st leg)

Having known each other all their lives, and having spent the better half of that time seeing the better and worse of each other, the duo believe they are ready for whatever the competition throws at them. In fact, watching them together, it seems they too have a need to outdo each other, and are behaving more like siblings than first cousins. They say, "We have gone though life, education and stress together and we have this bond."

Team 3 Father & Son from India
Niroo & Kapil

The father Niroo is an actor in India.Way to go!

Team South Korea -William & Issac (brothers)

1st time seen team from Korea. Last season we have a team from Japan
William is a sport TV host and sports agent..as well as his brother
These brothers know how to score a goal when they spot an opening, seeing as how the siblings are a staple in the Korean football arena – They are sports commentators and football agents for professional players in what is arguably Asia's favourite sport. William and Isaac Hong are definitely looking at bringing their A-game to The Amazing Race Asia, as this is the first time that a Korean team is participating in the race.

Team Malaysia
Ida & Tania (best friends)

Well if you are malaysian u will definitely know who is Ida Nerina. A famous actress in the country. Have been acting in about 16 films and countless dramas. here, ida teamed up with her friend Tania a property developer.

Team Malaysia 2 Bernie & Henry
Sister & Brother

Bernie is also an actress in Malaysia..but maybe not as famous as ida, simply because bernie have involved a lot in english theatres production. She did acted in few Malay drama. But she is most recognised by being the host for Project Runaway Malaysia. Meanwhile her elder brother is a chef and a restaurant owner

Off course i will support the Malaysia team to win la!! hopefully one of this team will be the winner again. Malaysia Boleh!! hhhee

Team Philipines Tisha & Geoff
Dating

In 1998, Tisha won the Miss Philippines Universe crown but had to give it up because of her Canadian citizenship. While that win has remained the proudest moment of her life, she's hoping that taking part in The Amazing Race Asia will trump that.

Joining her is her boyfriend of three and a half years, Geoff, and by all accounts, participating, much less winning the race will be an uphill battle says the couple. For one thing, their relationship is the classic definition of opposites attract.

Team Spore Ad & Fuzie
Friends for 15 yrs

the small one is AD a freelance writer & director while her friend fuzie is a teacher. A odd team i must say..less favourite to win this race as compared to last season winner from Spore. But hey! u never know..anything can happened in the race.

Colourful does not begin to describe long-time friends A.D. Chan and Fuzzie Sirajudin. As one can tell, normal does not describe the default buddies, as they describe themselves, who oddly define their relationship as "an old married couple". "We're like that, except we're not old, we're not married, and we're not a couple!" says Fuzzie, 34, a partner and teacher in an English language centre.

Having met in school 15 years ago, Fuzzie was nothing that A.D., 34, now a freelance writer-director for TV and T-shirt designer, saw as a potential friend. She says, "But look how far we've come! It must have been written in the stars that we should become default buddies. And I suspect this is what we will be for the rest of our lives."

So it was only natural that when auditions for The Amazing Race Asia 3 came up, choosing each other was well, a default choice. Referring to the race as an opportunity to do something different, Fuzzie says, "It's to do something outside the mundane, to do something to challenge myself and something to define the year."

Team Thailand Mai & Oliver
Best friend

Mai is an actress/model while oliver is also a model...need i say more!
Last night after they finished the race 1st in their own country..Mai even siad that she wanted to quit the race! duhhh...

and oh ya..the girl that greeted them in Thailand together with allan is a member from Thailand team in season 2..i forgot la her name!

Anyway...hope for more actions and not just drama from drama queens or beauty queen.
Its still too early to predict who will win this toughest race ever! But i hope one of Malaysia team will win this time!!
And oh..there was no team from Indo this time around...
Dont forget to watch TARA next Thursday at 9pm AXN!!cant wait to watch next week..hehe

The Amazing Race Asia-3

2008-09-11T23:23:00.003+08:00

Finally, TARA season 3 preview tonight 11/9 and claimed to be the toughest ever. Being a avid fan of Amazing Race from season 1-10 ( i somehow lost interest after AR 10...)TARA is something that all fans been waiting for...it always been my dream to enter such race..hehhe...but being the fact that i cant swim i will definitley fail my first audition.

I have seen the ups and downs and all gimmicks since season 1 and TARA 1..i remember clearly some episodes or moments in the show. Off course when the 1st time the race came to KL..if not mistaken season 3 kot..where this one team of 2 hunk make models (twin lagi)i've been supporting off course. It was just a quick stop before they head to Spore. Since that Malaysia have been in the list..they went to Sabah, Sarawak, KL..

In seasaon 7 (if i'm right) the hippies team won..which i'm very happy for because i've been supporting them all the way..Jarang team yang aku support menang!
and for the 1st time they have the 1st muslim team in the race but it was quite a gimmick i guess..they were out during the 1st leg...even it was not at the pit stop!! Duhhh..since that malas dah nak tengok.

Once they had the family ediiton..which was quite fun and noisy to have 4 members...and off course Amazing Race All Star! I support the Survivor team..gosh i forgot their name...yess amber n rob..they just came in second.

And now my antenna have moved to TARA..off course i support Malaysian team lorrr...
for the past 2 season Msian team did quite well..the 1st season won by msian and 3rd place. 2nd season we got 2nd (vincent chong's sisters) and season 3 we have ida nerina and her bff and bernice and her brother.

after wactching TARA for 3 seasons already i think that you have to pretty, hunk and somebody to be able to qualified yourself into this race...and they are not really pure asian as per say. what happened to the real asian like me (well not me la) the rest of the people..i guess there must be many many asian and normal people that send in their audition tape..but again as i said if u are not preety enough, hensem enough, somebody to somebody you might not had the chance at all la!!

i wanted to write more about TARA...but i cant hardly get my eyes open...bulan puasa ni cepat je sleepy..but i will continue soon...

i'll be back...this is not an elimination round...hehhe

2008-09-03T11:01:00.003+08:00

2 ramadan
Back to work! after 3 hari long Merdeka weekend. Got out from the office around 5.40 gitu...wah!! as expected memang jam giler..sampai rumah mama ngam ngam 630pm. Siap siap ambik lauk bekal and the kids, menongkah arus lagi balik ke bt mas. Sampai rumah ngam ngam lagi 5 minit bukak posa...aduss! kelam kabut jadinya...
Beb dah beli sikit kuih muih, ada pengat pisang mama and air tebu. Makan dulu sikit...dah tu baru prepare main menu ari ni "Tandoori chicken sandwich". Ok la hari ni berjaya buat menu simple...

bukannya apa, biasanya bila buka posa mesti makan macam macam..normally family aku akan makan kuih muih dulu then baru followed by nasi. Bayangkan la betapa penuh nya perut..plus air lagi! dah abis makan normally akan rasa semamcam kenyang...and dah tentu nya dah jadi macam ular sawa!! malas nak buat apa apa...mata pun sure sure mengantuk..badan pun rasa tak best...dah tu dalam 1-2 hours tido pulak...biarla tido awal..nanti kang nak bangun sahur pulak...makanan masa buka tak habis hadam dah tido kan dah tu sambung pulak makan sahur...kalau silap gaya bulan posa boleh naik badan woh!

jadi dengan scenario ini la aku mencadangkan for we all makan ala kadar saja. How much our stomach can take anyway! Jadi nampaknya semalan dgn jaya nya aku hanya makan sandwich, sikit kuihmuih dan air susu dan juga air tebu. Cukup la, just nice. Lepas tu badan pun tak rasa semcam..rasa energetic lagi..

tapi kan weakness aku yang paling ketara bila time tidurkan si dani...pukul 9.30 dua dua dah macam sleepy, so masuk bilik la nak kasi they all sleep...dgn keadaan yang sungguh condusive di temani lampu samar samar,memang la sungguh best tidor...bebudak suruh aku story pasal Jack and the Beanstalk

hehe..aku tak berapa ingat sebenarnya original story ni, aku main mereka cipta aje jadi version aku sendiri, yang penting mesti ada
slot pasal jack baling kacang, jadi pokok kacang tinggi,

jumpa giant,

ambik harta karun giant, kena kejar giant, jack ambik axe potong pokok...giant mati!hehhee....

Tengah aku bercerita dgn bersungguh sungguh..aku terdengar sayup sayup suara aku sendiri...tapi macam skrip citer ni dah bercampur baur dgn citer lain..hehhe..itu maknanya aku dah separuh tidur...si alif asyik asyik tanya aku.."Lepas ni apa Ma?" aku pun mcm lupa lupa ingat...sedar sedar aku, dani and alief dah kroh!kroh! aku terjaga dalam pukul 12 kot...lepas tu tido balik..hheee

Spouse aku kekadang boring aje sebab aku sure gagal keluar balik dari bilik bila aku tidurkan the boys...mmm..its really not my intention Beb! ;)cant help it la..dia boring sebab lepas makan takde geng nak borak and layan tgk tv...aku pun dah lama tak follow tv series yang aku selalu tgk..i will try my very best not to fall asleep with the boys...hehe

Tapi al-kisahnya aku terlambat bangun sahur malam tadi..bangun bangun pukul 5.20...apa ke halnya..ada lagi dalam 21 minit nak imsak...cepat cepat makan apa yang dah ada..mcm roti dan minum susu and coffee..aku masak jugak nasi tapi tak sempat masak dalam 21 minit..and maknanya tak ter-makan la lauk yang mama bekalkan semalam...jadinya ini juga bermaksud....lauk pauk ini akan menjadi lauk berbuka puasa esoknya!!!

Jadi moral of the story nya..masak la nasi untuk sahur awal...in case kalau terbangun lambat still boleh makan nasi! Moral tu untuk aku la kan....

Selamat bersahur semuanya!!

Ramadan

2008-09-02T13:45:00.004+08:00

Rasa macam nak continue lagi citer pasal Spore part 3..tapi mcm dah basi pulak story..mean time dah banyak story yang linger dalam my head, tapi tak post post pun...hehee..off course Alhamdulillah, this year again kita menyambut bulan puasa al Mubarak..dan bermakna bermula la project masak masak..walaupun i will not be cooking everyday..(thanks to my mom...bekalkan lauk everyday from monday to friday) and memang weekend nak tak nak aku kena la jugak masak kan! Aku memang suka masak, walaupun kekadang ter masin dan ter manis, tetapi preparation (mis-en-place) dia yang memening dan memakan masa yang lama..dah tu nak mengemas dapur lepas makan..pun aku tak berapa suka..tapi sebabkan aku tak de maid kat bukit mas, so terpaksa la buat semuany sendiri...

Ok dengan jayanya i cooked for Sunday lunch...siap bawak sampai ke malam. ( Masak lebih roast chicken a day earlier bawak picnic). And bangun pukul 1.30 masak sahur pulak..fuhyoo!! hehe..1st time ni masak asam pedas...ok la berjaya jugak, cuma sedikit manis komen beb.

Tengah method aku masak asam pedas ni..si dani pulak bangun..dia kalau aku takde tidor kat sebelah dia mesti cepat terjaga..dah tu nak kasi tidur balik mesti aku kena landing sebelah dia..nanti kang ikan goreng atas dapur hangit la pulak..so nak tak nak..si dani pun join we all sahur jugak...dia pun sibuk makan nasi aku sekali..hehee..dah abis makan around 430am baru semua tido balik...!

And bermula la puasa kita pada tahun ni..beb reminded me ' Dah niat dah"...hhehee..Dah! Biasa nya bulan puasa rutin agak memenatkan la...and for this year both of us try
1. not to membazir..esp time gie pasar ramadan...semua pun nampak best kan...nak nak kalau gie kat melawati tu.!

2. Makan light light aje time buka posa..hehee...dalam proses turun kan berat badan. Anything is fine and we will try not to take rice...(aku tengah pening kepala pikir menu buka apa ari ni...hehe). Kalau sahur baru makan nasi berbekal kan lauk mama. So aku cuma bangun panas kan lauk dan tambah tambah ikan masin or telur masin aje...

3. Aku try tak nak tidur balik lepas sahur..;) Maybe except for weekend..

4. Try not to buy anymore clothes for the kids and myself...baju baju raya semua dah beli 1 day before Merdeka..malas nak beli masa puasa dgn org ramai..so prepare awal senang...kalau aku nak beli pun some accesories to go with the baju...

5. Solat..solat..solat. will try kot boleh gie terawikh. With the boys around susah jugak nak pergi...kena tinggal kat rumah mama baru boleh pegi.Maybe kena take turn dgn maid aku...

6. Ada orang tu try nak stop smoking...harap harap suksesss ya pak!!!

dengan ini i want to wish all friends selamat buka posa dan menyambut ramadan dgn jayanya..mintak maaf and ampun kalau ada tersalah tersilap. And dah tentu ada few buka puasa session with friends this year as usual, with my AMAB frens, ex CSQ's colleagues, office punya buka puasa, not sure my other half punya sessions...

tapi la kan..satu yang aku tak gemor bulan puasa ni...time nak balik..ya AMPUN...jam nya jangan cakap la..especially area office aku ni..memang lubuk dia la ni..hehee..kiri kanan depan belakang semua jam la..tak boleh nak cilok, jalan shotcut pun dah jadi longcut...tapi terpaksa tempuh juga.

Selamat menyambut ramadan al mubarak...

Down South to Kota Singa -part 2

2008-08-05T13:20:00.015+08:00

our first day shopping tour around the island was a bit hectic..we went to about 5 shopping centre in the suburban area. We started approx at 11.30am and we left the last shopping mall at about 8pm...lots of walking and train trips...kalau nak citer semua..bosan jugak kan..so i will just gonna tell about stuffs that really caught my eyes during this study trip.

Day 1
1st mall-Tiong Baru Plaza

From Kovan station to Tiong Baru station tak de la jauh sgt la..this mall is right above the train station. Went through refurbishment and re-positioning, this mall was busy especially during lunch time. You can see F&B outlet at every levels, this is how they circulate the traffic and let the flow evenly on the centre.

The CS counter were at 1st floor..its actually a good idea to have it at the 1st floor. At least you can have customer to go up. Here in KL, the CS counter is always at the Ground Floor. Sex and the City film was 1st launched here in Singapore on my 29 May ( my birthday) how cool was that. Only about a month later, the film launched in KL...lambat kan? But off course, pirated DVD dah lama la keluar.

And then kalau kat Spore ni..if 'kopitiam' means food court. lain from us here in M'sia ni.

Then from Tiong Baru Mall we went to a Mall near Clarke Quay..dah lupa dah nama mall ni..(semua dalam note book..but time nak tulis post ni tak jumpa pulak note book tu..so tulis mana yang ingat je la). Anyway mall ni dalam 70% refurbishment work. Only lower floor with supermarket and f&b outlet yang dah bukak...Mall ni famous amoung the Japanese and they have the Medi-Ya supermarket here.

And another thing that i noticed in Spore ni is Subway restaurant quite popular compared to KL and you can see this restaurant in every mall and its pack. Another thing, they have McD cafe here, a new concept of McD for young execs and business people. Something that they will only venture into M'sia in next 2-3 years. They claimed that Msia market still not ready for Mc D Cafe! Maybe betul jugak, we are so used with our local kopitiam, and starbucks..!!

Satu lagi kan kat Spore ni mana mana mall aku pergi..orang ramai betul la..pelik gak..berduyun duyun orang..

So after the 2nd mall we stop sat kat Central..betul betul depan Boat Quay and Clarke Quay..it was not there when i came here 4 yrs back!Confuse sikit layout mall ni..and ada pulak corner corner hidden..but concept mall ni ala ala modern art la..

check out thier stools..tempat menunggu..

the next mall we went pun a bit outskirt..area residential..time we all sampai around 4 gitu..time budak budak balik sekolah..penuh la kat train station..
What really inspire me and the rest was thier dedicated 2nd floor for women called "exclusively hers" we found it cleverly done with some thoughts ont the details. There is one customer service counter dedicated to this floor with lounge area. basically this section focussing more on products for women (that means everything!!)

they used a lot of pink to decorate the ceiling, pillars and floors

a creative way to fully utilised the pilalrs as an advertisement space. Clever!

even the toilet was given much thought. A very roomy and spacious toilet with beauty parlour counter concept in the middle for quick make up fix, you can even blow your hair and a small corner area with some magazines. Brilliant...all women will love this toilet. And need i say..it is so clean!Love this
Kat Kl tak de lagi toilet concept camni...

another clever and important idea especially for mom like me. So far kalau kat Kl yang pernah aku jumpa toilet yang ada this small urinate bowl is kat Ikea..tempat lain aku tak sure. Very the senang kalau semua female toilet ada ni..espceially with small boys mcm si alief..senang nak wee wee..seluar tak basah..kalau tak nak kena bukak kasut segala..

anyway this toilet is not from the same mall..this is taken from Junction 8 mall. and i hope to see more of this in Kl's malls toilet. Talking about convienience and shopping experience, expecially when you have small kids.

To continue with part 3...

Down South to Kota Singa-part 1

2008-07-12T13:06:00.006+08:00

i'm back! dah lama giler tak update blog...sampai ada yang sms tanya apasal lama tak update..hehhee for a while rasa macam celebrity blogger pulak!! ntah bila la aku nak tukar profession jadi full time blogger pulak..tapi kalau jadi full time boleh bring in 10k a month i dont mind! Such a pleasure kan...

anyway i wanted to citer pasal my recent trip down south to Kota Singa from 3-6 June. Almost a month jugak tu...the last time i went down to Spore was somewhere 4 years back with Beb. It was one of my most favourite vacation...well not really a vacation..but i rasa mcm we have bonding well after that trip. Its more to park and greenery trip..we went to see most of the parks and green area in Spore. it was indeed very different from my previous trip..biasa we went there to visit and spend money in shopping malls.

But this time my trip was even better, our main purpose was to visit as many shopping centre as we can. How cool was that? We have not really spend lots of our time in the ever famous Orchard road (Great Spore Sales was on!!!) but we visited most of the suburban malls in the island, it will be more relevant la kan to CSQ ni...

This is the first time jugak i'm away for more than 1 night from the boys...and at the same time i kindda need a short break jugak kan...

From changi airport we went staright to our budget stay lodging..not really budget price if you ask me..they charged us S140 a night which is equivalent to RM350 a night! But all 3 of us stayed in the same room...this is actually a family room for 8..and since this si a budget stay we have to share the bathroom..which was ok to me! It feels like at home..not that hotel feeling! I have surf the net for few days to find a good spot for us..with the budget given..kalau betul betul budget ada la dalam S50 gitu tapi betul betul bag pack punya place la...macam hostel gitu... so finally i choose oneflorence close near Kovan train station...just about 5 mins walk! it was cozy and nice place...

Welcommeee.....Our room...the finish and bedding is very simple, but the curtain makes it look comfy and cozy. The tilam pun ok..obviously all are from Ikea. We have no complains...everybody were happy and smilling...

I like the door...so welcoming kan! beb kalau kita buat pintu camtu ok ke? hehhe

Kat luar before entering..tempat lepak lepak

Lepas je checked in..masing masing dah lapar..kalau makan kat spore ni kena extra careful sikit almaklum la..only certain place je halal..and most of the food place here tak halal..nearby kat tempat we all stay ni ada ala ala food court tapi chinese la...so we all jalan ke train station and we found this small kopitiam by the road..so i just had kaya toast and teh tarik..ok ok je la

So we all dah set nak start our 1st day trip...ada banyak jugak malls nak pegi ni...i will continue part 2 ye....

Happy Birthday!

2008-05-31T11:59:00.002+08:00

On 29 th May baru lepas ni I am officially turned 35 years old!
Ntah la ye...is 35 years ni consider tua ke tak? aku pun tak pasti..but i dont feel like 35!! but again..tell me how does a 35 years old should feel? subjective kan?
maybe a little bit more wiser...and believe it in 5 years time i will be 40 years old!! Today aku busy gie renew passport aku..i went to putrajaya at fisrt sebab aku pikir kat sana tak ramai org..and furthermore sekarang ni cuti sekolah, so sure kat PBD sana ramai org...tapi rupanya kat imigresen putrajaya they all tak buat re-new passport..so aku berkejar pulak gie PBD..time tu dah pukul 2 lebih dah...buat renew kat kioks tu- senang pakai kiosk tu..cepat dan tak payah beratur lama..boleh siap dalam 2 jam...sebab aku sampai dah petang, so aku kena gie collect besok ari nya!!
So that's how aku abiskan siang hari my birthday!

Biasanya pada tahun tahun ke belakang, aku akan go somewhere on my birthday..my 1st birthday with beb,tak gie mana la..we just went for dinner and dia still wish aku birthday even after 2-3 hari!! That was my 31st b'day.. My 32nd B'day, pun aku tak gie mana mana sebab aku heavily pregnant with Alif..we just went for dinner kat KLCC..
33rd birthday we went to Sabah..and celebrated my birthday kat tepian pantai yang cantik! it was a great vacation, masa tu alif dalam 11 months. Last year on my 34th Birthday...mmmm...lupa la aku buat apa!! maybe masa tu aku sibuk kat opis..sebab nak tukar management baru..and aku pulak baru came back to opis lepas confinement. Serius tak ingat buat apa!!!

So this year, sebab Beb takde kat tanahair, nothing special la..maybe pun takde birthay cake!!! so tak rasa sgt feel tu...but malam birthday aku tu mama masak soto and they all beli satay..then aku belanja they all minum teh tarik!!

Alhamdulillah, aku dah 35 tahun, syukur atas segala rezeki dan apa yang diberi oleh Allah, I'm a mother for 2 boys, a wife, masih boleh bermanja dgn my beloved parents, surrounded by great people around me, my friends and people at work!
Wishes...memang banyak mende yang masih tak cukup rasanya..tapi dgn apa yang adanya sekarang..alhamdulillah...Aku hope for rezeki for my family lebih murah, hope for Beb to come back for good and get a job here in KL, for the health of my family,( the kids espceially), to be able to save more money ( our house will siap in 2 years time), and all the good things in life!!

Thanks for all the birthday wishes yang aku dapat...the 1st wish came a day earlier, from an old opismate..just sebab dia tersilap date! secondly from my dearest Beb..at midnite...the 1st sms came in the morning from my insurance agent A! Then from Papa, one from Pnut..thanks pnut! Another one from another insurance agent, my old friend from high school ( now jarang contact pun sebenarnya), one from Datin Nana! and one from my brother...thanks all for the thought!!

So next brithday will be my dear Alief on 18/6..he will turn 3!! He already asked for Cake Ultraman!! mana la aku nak cari...

lama tak update!

2008-05-31T11:42:00.003+08:00

aduss..dah dekat sebulan aku tak update blog ni..busy betul kat opis..and takde masa jugak nak update kat rumah...bila dah sampai rumah bergelimpangan dgn the boys..bila dah malam malas pulak nak memblog...

anyway..ari ni ari sabtu and aku kerja..so take a time to blog for a while!
for the past 1 month ada few things yang aku nak blog about tapi kalau aku tulis ni dah outdated la kan... so here just some summary!

1. celebrated Mother's day ala kecil-kecilan jer kat rumah mama..just bought her a cake and bawak dia out for breakfast..As usual, Alief yang seronok sangat makan kek tu..in the evening, si Ayu bawak lagi satu cake..!! I received just 1 Mother's day wish from a dear friend...no wishes from org yang nun jauh di sana!!

2. i also wanted to blog about the "Black and Gold" nite event that i attended kat the curve on 8/5..this is actually the theme for their Mother's day promotion and malam tu is their launching. It was a good event overall, good performance from Atilia, ada fashion show from curve's retailer. Ada jugak few famous faces yang aku namapak malam tu...lepas event tu abis around 9pm we head to makan shushi, with 2 of my opismate si Jana and becky. Just wish one day i can do such event kat city square!!

3. Then on 21/5 officialy Plaza Ampang was closed for public. The shopping centre has been the landmark of KL for almost 30 over years. This is where the 1st Pizza Hut in Malaysia was opened; that was in 1982...and this also the place for the 1st Body Shop outlet in malaysia ( 1984).Banyak lagi story and history of this place yang aku pun tak tau..but the most popular spot News KTV pun dah takde! they have moved to Ampang park..nicer and tak dodgy sangat! As been always known as Plaza Yow Chuan.. i remember they used to have Benson & Hedges some sort like exclusive club or something, TCBY's yogurt...
However, the demolition work still belum start..maybe in mid jun or early July.
I can't wait to see how CSQ will change..for good!!

i wanted to post some pics... but later later la yek!

cheers

friendship

2008-04-28T15:07:00.003+08:00

what does 'friendship' mean to you? i am blessed to have great friends around me for the past 15 years. Although i have friends throughout my life but these are friends that always around me through good and bad times. It always a good feeling to be around..the feeling of comfort.
I remember the time when kita mandi hujan, i never knew that mandi hujan gave you such a great feeling. That was the one time in my life that i remembered mandi hujan with joy! biasa bila hujan kita cepat cepat lari takut basah...and i guess that was the only time i ever mandi hujan. memories kat Jati memang best..and apa yang lagi best i still have close friends in jati till now..!!

I remember the great times we had when we were staying in Shah Alam from 1997-2000.
From sek 11 (where we get to know the budak budak balai yang baik baik belaka and funny guys!)bofriend boyfriend masa kat sek 11..and also the existence of Dora! a brief one but cukup memberi impact hehe..kat sini jugak i was first introduce to a slogan "Life is a piece of sh***t" hehhee by one of my housemate. Kat sini jugak lahirnya AMAB and the committee..dari committee transport, floor manager, events, PR etc.

Then we moved to sek 7, where my fond memories includes kereta honda bulat yang boleh muat masa tu 7-8 people pegi to the nearest comuter station kat padang jawa! and how people will stare at us naik keta tu masa kat business school. Lepas tu incident stone nak belasah aku masa seminar..ishhh..takkan ku lupa kes tu dan sukar aku nak maafkan si stone! kita lah yang paling glamer kat IB tu..bukan sebab cantik ke apa..tapi sebab macam berlagak..hahaaa...
aku jugak teringat kat anaz!! hehe bf si ely masa tu..sampai langgar gate rumah..sampai kesudah kita tak betulkan pagar tu...then masa ni jugak aku ingat sharing rooms with afiq and girl..ala ala hostel rumah org tua!!hehhee... gila main uno..sampai satu area tu dgr suara kita! and jugak pasal blind date internet friend..doctor zul and puff daddy!!! and titik perkenalan yang menjadi horor akhirnya dgn budak budak ASTRO kat HRC!!!! wah..mmg aku tak boleh lupa part ni...
tapi masa ni jugak aku tengok kawan kawan aku semua memang sayang kat aku!!

lepas tu kat sek 9 kemuncak..teringat pulak cantonese beef ginger yang sedap dalam dunia!! and here our paths met us up with Linda Lam yang gila..si shah and inci dari rumah sebelah! masa ni semua org macam bercinta hangat...tapi tak ku lupa pasal sorang kawan aku yang teruk kecewa cinta yang amat sangat!! i remember our "disco" hehe and baju dalmation.. time ni nadia, shahiza, si fida semua suka dtg melepak at what we called the "Heartbreak Hotel"- sebab masa tu lagu ni femes!

Then sampai pulak era court 10! the very tak boleh lupa kes tembakau!!! Time ni pun best jugak...Lepas tu we all macam dah a bit seperated. 2003 me, nadia and afiq bertapa kat desa! so macam dah a bit jauh..masa ni pun nadia hebat jugak bercinta..hehhee! then in 2004 aku dah jumpa nest baru!hehhee...

rindu rasanya nak melepak dgn my friends ni..we used to live in each other space. and now we have to accept that everybody have our own seperate life dah...but our friendship still remain strong..but i wish i can see them more often...just laugh about the old times.

Anyway...to AMAB and friends yang always been around for all these years..thanks for all the love and friendship!I also have found a good friend,and my life partner, we will go through all the tough times together, for good and worse!!

cheers!

from a friend

2008-04-28T14:55:00.001+08:00

Before & After

2008-04-12T13:18:00.004+08:00

Went to PWTC on friday for the Book fair..i'm always a big fan of books..but kekadang no time to read! especially when you have small kids ni. I just told a friend today, what i really miss about being single and no kids ni is

1. Bangun lambat..its really a privilege to be able to wake up later esp on weekends.
Walau pun tdo lambat the night before, u still need to wake up as soon your kids bangun..

2. The non- existence of "Lazy Sunday" - i used to wake up late on sunday, took brunch..kat luar or just eat bread..wait in front of TV to watch Melodi and Nona..afternoon nap jap..and dulu every sunday we never miss our Sunday pasar malam in Bangsar.

3. Laze and lying in bed doing nothing and listen to music..
oh..i miss this..i listen to music a lot since i was in school lagi, and i still remember my first cassete ( dulu mana ada cd) that i bought with my own money was Bobby Brown!! and my fav singer dulu dulu masa sekolah is always sheila majid, fairuz hussein..i listen a lot to wings and search, iron miaden (believe it or not!! hehe.. but the last album they all yang aku dengar is "the seventh son of the seventh son"), R&B singer like aretha, chaka..well quite wide range jugak la music aku dengar..as long as it's good and sedap di dengar.

Will always remember the concerts i went to the ever big "Ikhlas tapi Jauh" concert in 1993 (15yrs back...so in love with Afdlin masa tu...great voice and still slim!!)Konsert Wings (maybe in year 1990 kot!!) Konsert sheila majid (dah tak ingat how many times)..mmmm..yesss History concert Micheal Jackson...maybe year 1993 jugak kot tak ingat..Alanis Morriset, Jon Bon Jovi ( walaupun aku bukan fan dia!!)and the last concert i went was Mariah Carey in 2004!
I missed the concert from ALicia Keys!!! Boyz 2 Men! show from John Legend...(still thinking about it nih!!!)
ANd hope to be able to watch Justin Timberlake concert, Beyonce (if she ever come to Malaysia); Jamiroquoi ( kalau dia dtg aku mesti nak gie!!)...tapi tu lah concert ni ticket punya la mahal...

on 13th ada concert Celine Dion kat stadium merdeka! not a fan so its ok...

never been a fan of music melayu rock kapak! as i grow a bit matured!!hehhe..i listen a lot to soul, r&b and jazz...a big fan of Mariah Carey, Whitney, After 7, Babyface, Kenny G and list go on...

i can go on and on with music ni...and at the moment i really enjoy listening to John Legend, ( i missed his performance at Sunburst ari tu..perrggh! bila lagi la dia nak dtg KL), I love love Marcell ( still need to get a grip of the new album Hidup!)Dia ada buat performance for secretaries week this 24/4 together with dayang and imran..tapi ticket mahal bangat...)

I used to balst the music on the first thing i woke up and before to bed! miss that

4. Late supper and teh tarik at night at mamaks...just doing nothing and borak sampai pagi...lepaking with my AMAB frens...tengok TV program mcm nak buat kenduri..esp kalau tgk program award award ni mcm APM, AIM,Muzik Muzik la...and off course AF...punya la kecoh....but it was real fun!! abis satu court 10 tu boleh dengar suara kita semua...

hehhe..fav hang out last time was in Bangsar ( dah takde dah tempat ni), Uptown ( dah crowded dah..lama tak pegi,,miss the keow teow and sotong, Gazebo Sec 15, Subang..lorong katak ( ni zaman tahun 1989 ni..tau tak kat mana lorong katak ni?)

5. Midnight shows! Lama dah tak tengok midnite movie

6. ANd the MOST thing that i missed is read my story books!!! I cant seems to find the time to read story books anymore. Kalau magazine tu ok lagi la..kejap jer boleh baca..tengok tengok gambar ok la..but i used to read books before going to bed! and whenever i have the time...ada lagi buku yang aku tak bukak wrap dia kat rumah!Kekadang ada gak rasa nak beli story book..tapi tu lah pikir balik..bila la nak baca..tak jadi la beli!!

BUT enough said about the things that i missed...it doesnt mean that i'm not enjoying my life now..but this is me before and i would like sometimes to still be the same old me..maybe once a while lepaking with frens..off course dah tak boleh borak sampai pagi but at least we lepak together...once a while jugak terasa nak tgk midnite movie...or gie tengok concert kalau boleh...its important to still get in touch with yourself...

but i also experienced things that i never thought i will ever experienced before...being a mother was a very hardwork and sacrifices...banyak lagi mende yang aku tak tau..sometimes we thougth that we knew a lot of things but...sebenarnya only a little yang kita tau...and the reward is overwhelming...being with the kids was one of the best moments in my life...and also having a life partner meaning i will never be lonely again...able to stay in love sampai the end of lives...i will always have someone by my side..for good or for bad!! seriously..it was very difficult before..in and out of love..insecure, heartaches, tears, otak yang serabut, deppressed...but you know what!! it all pays...Allah want you to suffer and learn to stand again on your feet, and he will reward you with the best at the end. I couldn't ask for more...

2008-04-12T10:11:00.002+08:00

How time really flies! we already in mid of april and another 8 months to go before the year end. Maybe its a good time to review what we have done for the past 4 months.. is there anything that we have achieved and to improve ourselves?
Everyday is a learning process, we learn many things from other people around us. We learn from our children, our friends and colleague. And also everyday we learn about our selves!

I once told a friend that a child can bring out the bad in you, the worst part of your self. Because, i do sometimes loss my anger and patience when it come in dealing with the kids. In fact, i also learned that,being with your spouse also bring out the bad in you. Funny, how it was different when you are a couple! looking back then,everthing seems to be at the best. And a marriage will only seal all the love inside us and we promise to go thorugh thick and thin together, for all the weakness, and at the same time we also need to be in-touch with ourselves.

Ntah apa la yang aku merapu ni!! hehhe...well what i really want to say is..Love supposed to bring out the best out of you kan? With love we can change the world...!
ni mesti sebab aku tengok idols give back 2 nights ago ni! again i miss the performance by john legend...and i love Fergie's performance..awesome...

alhamdulillah syukur for all that we have today...being blessed with so much love and care from the people around us..ada rumah to live in, enough food, warm clothes, live in peaceful malaysia,even with all the politics fiasco, admit it, we are still lucky to a malaysian. And this is still a safe environment for the children to grow up.
Yes, we cant also deny the fact that they are "animals" out there that will make some people's life miserable but we are still better off compared to people in Africa, Indonesia and other poor countries. We still can enjoy our favorite teh tarik late at night, watch football match on giant TV screen at mamaks, mat rempit pun still happily merempit, enjoy AF concert every saturday night, watch sports game without being kill, and so on and ya da ya da!

but i still cant understand the saying " Hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu di negeri sendiri,lebih baik di negeri sendiri..betul ke peribahasa aku ni..(kalau bab bab peribahasa ni ada fail sikit)but maybe ada betul nya la kan!! walaupun mcam mana best pun negara luar mcm uk,france ker...we will never get sambal belacan dan ulam ulam, ikan kering, mamaks, nasi lemak, teh tarik,kan ?

apa jer la aku merepek ari ni..hehhee...
summary nya topic ari ni
peace to the people!!!
Love can heal us all...stop war & violence
always reemember to thank Allah, alhamdulillah for what we have today!
Love is always a never ending process...we always need to stay in love and be happy...
dont sweat the small stuffs...

cheers!!

Dani's 1st Birthday

2008-03-29T11:13:00.008+08:00

Happy birthday to beloved Dani from Mama, Ayah & Alief

we celebrated dani's 1st birthday on 24th Feb..yupp!! dah almost 1 month ago..baru nak upload pics..and today officialy dani dah dapat lesen P..he can walk already,,my little dani!! he's been busy learning to walk since 1 month ago cuma for the past 4 days ni he now can walk without assistance. Kalau tak dia still tak confident and nak pegang tangan sapa sapa then baru berani nak jalan...but now my little dani dah boleh jalan on his own!! a big achievemrnt for Dani...and today for the first time he walked outside at my mom's bare garden!!
here some pics taken on 24th Feb, a small makan makan at Bt mas..only family

Birthday boy and Ayah

Dani and Atuk

Dani & Nenek. There's no Dani pics taken with me on that day! **Sigh**

Darling Alief is org yg paling busy that day..seronok betul dia.Alief and cousin Ali busy watching Hikayat Putera shazlan on Ceria! semua dani's presents semuanya dia nak..he's so happy blowing the candle for Dani. He already told me that he want a "ultraman birthday cake" for his 3rd birthday coming June. He is now 2 yrs 9 months. He will turned 3 in less than 3 months!!

3 most important males in my life! My favourite boys...Muaahhh!

2008-03-29T10:07:00.002+08:00

Ayo yo yo!! lama betul aku tak update blog...
busy kat office..sebab normally aku update kat office..kalau kat rumah mmg takde time lagipun kat rumah mama kena q kalau nak access internet.
Since i have my retail marketing advisor joining on board since feb and she share this small office with me so a bit difficult nak access blog ni..
Few people dah tanya apasal lama tak update!!

Ok..lots been happeneing since the last time i blog..off course the most hot and sizzling fiasco is our election results on 8th March aritu. I only have a little to say about this....and the fact that i did not vote this year so i reserved my comments..but i just think it is very interesting and unexpected results in our nation history..this will be in Malaysia history...and my mon's area won by PKR..i just hope the people will get more benefits this time around. Maybe i would like to see improvement in basic public transportation and ways to ease traffic in KL ni..esp area office aku ni..kalau after work/raining day ke.mmg la very the jam..and even i did not literally pay for my petrol but it will good if we can see some price adjustment..and seriously aku rasa barang barang kat KL ni mahal..like groceries..ari tu aku gie giant (tengok jam dah pukul 10!! alief pun dah gosok gosok mata..ngantuk...aku tanya dia "Alief sleepy?" dia kata "No! nyamuk.." Hehe..)beli some groceries emergency list mcm vegy for dani's, fruits for the week, roti, some drinks and biscuits for alief, yogurt, tea and some other small items..tup tup semuanya sampai 90.00!! Tu tak masuk must have items for the month lagi macam milk for the kids, diapers, toileteries, detergent, some items for cooking..and everytine we went for monthly groceries mesti abis more than 500.00!! banyak kan..and every week mesti ada emergency and add on list..

ok aku tak nak mumble pasal harga brg brg ni..i can go on and on..just hope for the next 4 years ni till the next election..the people's standard of living will improve and can earn more! remind me to change my area mengundi next time around...maybe in putrajaya already..huh!

and pasal dah lama aku tak blog..banyak pulak aku nak citer this time..for the past 1-2 weeks me and beb been busy discussing and squezzing some ideas for our small kitchen renovation. Its time to change some items and to make it more spacious ( then i have more reason to cook!!)susah jugak yek nak cari idea to do up our kitchen because of the limited space..we been looking for some ideas in lots of interior books..just to get the concept right..budget pun tak besar..just nice..but now we might have to postponed our ittention!! something that is tak de dalam list suddenly popped up and we have to use the budget money for the kitchen for this purpose.
I'm not that dissapointed..just it has to be delayed till further notice..
we still can do up a little kan beb!we already bought the sink and new lightings..
it might look small and simple but a lot of thoughts have to put into it...kena tunggu la nampak nya

and now sibuk pulak dgn e-filing, income tax submission! its time of the year..
and my work contract for 1 year is about to abis..my contract ends by end of June. Hopefully i still will be around for at least the next 18 months..sebab myself and Jana have been working on and submitted our 18 months marketing strategy for CSQ..lots of interesting program will take place if our proposed budget of 2.1 mil is approved! This is the biggest amount of Marketing strategy budget i ever prepared. The most is 700k tupun kena reject..kena potong half!! i love my job sebenarnya, just sometimes the people around the office yang make me hate my job!! and now things are getting better n better just wish my gaji boleh up lagi!! haha...gaji ciput je...
well let see if my contract will be renew!!

okla..dah banyak story ni..at least i dont have to blog at least another 2-3 weeks hehehe...cheers!! enjoy

apa apa ajer

2008-02-25T18:28:00.002+08:00

kekadang tak de idea nak blog pasal apa...asyik citer pasal perasaan aje boring jugak.kena ada some concept and personal style lah...aku baca blog aku pun kekadang bohsan!! hehhe... ok maybe i shoul write about food!! everybody love food kan..but first of all i need to get myself a camera phone..yesss i'm still using an out dated phone..tadak camera..believe it or not...

ok..its about 6.30pm in the office and everybody have left. So i need to leave now!! tak berani duduk office alone. There's a lot of ghost stories around the office lately..even they have done the cleansing on saturday night...but u neve know kan!! i'm always afraid with all these invisible creatures..and i always avoid watching horror movie whenever possible. ( Gaia..on astro ria somehow is funny!!)Remember watching nightmare on elm street when i was a lot younger..and that was it...!!! that image of Freddie Kruger was permanently sticked to my brain...and that was really scary..how scarier can it get..when u sleep and all these horror and terrible things became real!!!! And never ever again..horror movie or ghost stories...i never watched one of the famous asia's version of ghost stories...

so i better make my way out of the office now!!!

contd- part 4

2008-02-19T15:43:00.007+08:00

This is the best part of all...the breakfast buffet. The 1st day we had our breakfast here on 8th Feb, still tak ramai guest. We had quite a simple but very nice buffet line but on top of that we can order hot breakfast menu ala carte, which is quite interesting menus they have in line. I orderd grilled salmon with salad. Small portion, just nice. Beb had beef fillet with eggs, and salad. wanted to order lagi from the ala carte menu but a bit too much kan,,so i head to the buffet line...

This is my favorite of all..yogurt in this small glass with various topping. Ada mango topping but my fav must be the blueberry, rasberry and kiwi..that morning aje i had..mmmm..i think 4 kot...

more pics of the room.

we fetch the kids in the afternoon..so abis la short "honeymoon" we all..with the kids around terus mood change..and the worst part was i had this problem with my face skin..ntah apa mende i used last week that made my skin jadi so red, itchy, and so sakit...nampak mcm ruam ruam penuh kat muka aku..very the nightmare..very uncomfortable and sakit...really cannot take it..its like it will never ever will get better...so i went to see a skin specialist..sebab dah tak tahan...so now my face mcm flawless le..hehhee...alhamdulillah dah better..

so enjoy some of the kids pics

part 3- dinner

2008-02-19T15:33:00.004+08:00

on the 1st day tu..sent alief to my mom's and we spend the night alone just the 2 of us..enjoying the quite moments without the kiddos. We went for a simple but nice annivesary dinner at the hotel. Malas pulak nak drive and cari tempat makan..lagipun we wanted to try the food here. unfortunately i did not snap any food pics..but the taste ok la not so bad...

we had chicken wings for appertizer..it was very nice.different from the normal chic wings.i had seafood grilled plater..it was ok ok aje..portion just nice. And beb had Labanese Lamb burger...overall it was ok jer..but the environment is nice.

view at night from 13th Floor sky lounge

annivesary- part 2

2008-02-19T10:14:00.006+08:00

i just finished download all pics from our annivesary. enjoy!!

Welcome beautiful Thursday...well we had quite a "panic" way of checking in to the hotel..not like we have planned for but lucikly only took us about 30 mins...i blog about this in Alief's blog. Anyway it was a nice windy Thursday and i knew we will enjoy our stay here.

Alief busy checking the room...

Alief & Ayah

the room and klcc view

Our room at 13th Floor

beautiful and pretty cupcakes

2008-02-14T17:29:00.004+08:00

Thinking of getting some cupcakes for dani's 1st birthday next Sunday..so lama jugak ari ni aku browse tgk website and blogs for cupcakes ni...i found many interesting and yummy blogs and site..be it local or overseas. I must say all cuppies look so pretty and cantik sekali, geram aku tengok..
but i'm not a big fan of the butter cream topping yang melampau..but it does look very nice
check out this interesting links....

and ada jugak perasaan nak buat sendiri cupcakes ni hehhee...resipi dah banyak print ni...tengok la kalau ada masa and rajin weekend ni nak buat experiment..hahhaa..Beb mesti sengih kalau dia tau niat murni aku nak buat cupcake ni..sebab banyak project experiment aku masuk tong sampah..hehhhee...we'll see about it eh!!

enjoy
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http://kekcawan.blogspot.com
http://www.sprinklescupcakes.com

Happy Anivessary!

2008-02-14T09:43:00.002+08:00

Ok enough of all that sad stories...
We celebrated our 3rd wedding anivessary on the 1st day of Chinese New Year on 7th Feb. This is one of the time that both of us really looking forward to..able to spend time just the two of us without the other "2 halves" hehe...lagipun i kindda need a break for 1 day and 1 night from the little boys...time to qadar tido and night outing. Initially we wanted to go somewhere outstation but coz of the long CNY holiday semua tempat pun penuh...sure berduyun duyun orang..
So we decided just to spend it in KL..cari cari hotel keliling Kl semua pun penuh..Last last ada jugak hotel kat KL ni tak fully booked..ada CNY Promotion package lagi..so we just grabbed it la..lagipun dah lama berangan nak check-in boutique hotel ni...

Will post some pics later, sebab left the cable at home pulak.
Anyway, the room was spacious, very modern interior compared to normal hotel room, airy and off course with KLCC view ( tu yang penting), the bathroom was big as well and we love the bath tub! All in all it was a great room with awesome view...
Just next to our room is the "Sky Lounge". Boleh lepak lepak in the evening till 11pm with the city line view. Its just that its on the 13th Floor..so tak tinggi sangat la

We spent the 1st nite alone..talking,talking and yada yada..hehheee..it is so good to be in different mood and environment. Asyik kat rumah je boring jugak...at least i can take my mind off for a while. I love you Beb..with all my heart and soul.
Hope for more better years for us and family. We should spend more time together more often, talk more often, stay in love for many many years to come ok!! Beb..banyak lagi things ahead of us..this is just the beggining..Hope we can go through all hurdles together, all kind of weahther.

Sometimes, i asked myself about being in a marriage and being a mother and wife or i rather be single and free..well u know, i had enough of being alone,lonley and felt unloved for so many years..even soemtimes i tension with the kids, tak sabar, marah2, depressed but i'm glad being around the people that i love and love me back..the kids and Beb! I will never be lonely again...

Will blog somemore about the annivesary and photos...soon!

2008-01-31T12:24:00.000+08:00

i realy realy felt depressed and down today..dah lama aku tak rasa down camni about my work. Cant really remember when was the last time,oh maybe when i was with AP land dulu kot..anyway...entahlah....takde mood betul to work now..rasa down....
with so many things happening in the office now, i just dont have the heart dah!!
Sapa nak kerja tension tension kan? dah tu asyik kena question aje all your decision..mcm aku buat salah aje..maybe salah kat mata diaorg la kot, or maybe they thought that i did not made a wise decision. Dah tu semua nak query through email...today aje i spend almost half a day to reply email..yang mana semuanya menjurus macam nak mengenakan aku aje...dah la all the hardwork aku selama ni tak diappreciate langsung..takde motivation langsung..and even till now after almost 6 months aku masih tak confirm lagi....boring betul la..so mind disturbing..sampai kat rumah even when i drive pun..i cant really put it off my mind thinking about work and
what is my plan B? eh..plan A ada ke?
rasanya its high time for me to do 'soul detoxification' la...

2008-01-29T11:14:00.000+08:00

lama tak blog...busy sikit kat opis..
my new exec report duty on 2/1 ari tu so a bit busy showing her stuffs
and nama dia suraya..hai..suraya la pulak..
anyway dia mc ni till 4th Feb..6 weeks pregnant and bleeding...

for the past 1-2 weeks ni quite a lot of stuffs been going on in my head..macam roller coster..the same feeling being felt by other half. Lots of issue linger around our current jobs, financial, our future home, the kids among others la...we need to improve in terms of our financial planning therefore looking for opportuniy for a better job and off course pay..and at the end it always about money, money and money.
We've been talking about Beb coming back to work in KL, it high time for him to come back..its been 3 years he's ulang alik from Sabah and KL..the kids are growing up, and kekadang bosan jugak living in 2 house ni..whenever beb is in sabah i will stay at my mom's..and whenever he's back i wil be in Bt mas..penat jugak ulang alik camni for the past 3 years.

I need to find another job..that's for sure. with better pay..tapi susah betul la. Maybe job experience aku kat CSQ ni not good enough ker? i dont know..byk job aku apply semua tak dapat. Sometimes i just feel like give it up and start from zero with HLA..but its gonna be difficult.Lots of sacrifices need to be made.
I love my job now..tapi yang buat i hate my job now is the management..too many bosses yang nak kena answer, and they started to question lots of things, my discretion and judgement as the Head of Dept, tu yang buat aku tak de hati nak kerja tu..and off course the pay very the ciput!! hai cakap pasal duit ni selalu tak cukup kan?

How much is enough?

Happy journal

2008-01-11T18:11:00.000+08:00

Watched Oprah last nite talking about a book "Eat, Pray, Love" its alreay in the middle of the show...but what really got me was when the author said that we normally write when we are sad..to express our sadness and anger..and we seldom write about what makes us happy!! i totally agree with her..so when we read our daily journal..it always remind us on all the bad moments and all the sadness...
on the other hand we should be writing happy moments, what really make us happy that day..it can be a small tiny little thing, but when we read it through it will always remind us on the things that make us happy..and by doing that we can always eliminate the negative energy and whenever we feel down always recall the happy moment...for example..it give me a sense of relieve and de-stress when i passed by the bakery shop this afternoon, the smell from the oven kindda lift u up!! something like that la...write that down..and just continue your normal chores and routine but whenever u feel stressed..stop for a while and think of that 'while' moment..
i think it is a very good idea..so from now on i will write my happy journal...instead of my frustation and anger!!

and another thing the author said when u wake up every morning ask yourself.."what do i really, really, really want today?" tu yang susah nak jawap tu kan..macam macam nak..but yang really really really nak lagi la payah!!hehhee...

Have a great weekend!!
cheers

Happy birthday!!

2008-01-11T18:07:00.000+08:00

I would like to wish a very very happy birthday to my dear hubby!! Today is his birthday and he is away in Sabah..me and alief sang him birthday song this morning...i will give birthday present later ye when he's back in KL..nak beli apa yek?? A year older a year wiser ye..hope for all the best, murah rezeki, better health and all of us cant wait for the time for you to be back...
Love you!!

Yesterday or Today

2008-01-07T15:26:00.000+08:00

What really made me sad or rather dissapointed is how people judge and make assumptions about you based on your past!! the history...not for the person whom you are today??? Dah tentu semua org nak jadi yang terbaik dalam hidup kan..so dah tentu kita selalunya lebih baik dari semalam...all of us learned from the mistakes from our past..so its just not fair to judge me based on my past mistakes?????
Just with a simple assumptions they have conclude me as not eligble or tak sesuai gitew!!! Now i knew how the ex drug addicts felt...people around always judge them for their past mistake..not who they are today..some of them have changed for good..but still susah for masyarakat to accept..and some yang fed-up and start the habit again....!!! well i have nothing to do with drugs la kan...but how people yang tak kenal kita boleh come to a conclusion just based on the past..Hangin akak tau...!!! i am definitely better than the past...and Yess!! i have learned from all the mistakes that i did..!!!

Malaysia Boleh

2008-01-05T11:05:00.000+08:00

Just about 5 days through the new year 2008. i guess everywhere Malaysian are talking about the Minister that acted in porn DVD!! he admitted that "I am the man in the DVD, and she is my personal friend" that was his statement that was aired on all news and been watched by millions of malaysian...this was aired on the 1st Jan!!
What a way to welcome the new year ha!! I bet you this story will be a part of Malaysia's governemnt history..24 hours after his brave statement, he resigned from all post in the cabinet and as the Minister of Health!! (talking about practising safe sex!!! )Need i say more about this issue? afterall he is normal human being and i guess he just being a man lor...!! Malaysia Boleh!

another issue that happened in the 1st week of Jan was an incident involving a TV personality being abducted and her car was stolen from her. Her kidnapper took her for a terror ride for about 3 hours before dropped her off somewhere and fled with her car. Due to this incident the Police has came out with a special force team to investigate and to probe the kidnappers.....!!!Duhhh...this is not the 1st incident of its kind happenned here in Malaysia..some even worse..snatched cases and victims were in coma or even dead and killed..and most of them are normal people..everyday people..people like us..you and me!!! are our lives not important? just because we are nobody in the public eyes...?? just a week before the new year a girl friend of mine got snatched while having coffee with frens..she put her handbag on her lap..and out of nowhere a guy came from her behind and snacthed her handbag...she lost her valuable items and car key to her 1 day old new car!! do you think the police teamed up specail force to get the culprit???? everyday there are crimes in teh street and it getting scarier, you always can be careful but you never know..
again Malaysia Boleh..boleh merompak! boleh meragut! boleh merempit!!...

New Year!New Year

2008-01-03T09:46:00.000+08:00

A very happy new year!! so how was your 1st day of the new year 2008?
mine?..mmmm..well...just another normal day at home with family la...
when the clock strike 12 last night..aku macam dengar sayup sayup aje bunga api dam dam dum..la rupa rupanya aku dah atas katil tido!!! macam nak bangun sebab Beb still outside watching tv kot..aku and the 2 kids dah tido..citernya malam ni pulak alief and dani macam tau tau pulak new year eve, dua dua pun tido pukul dalam 11.30 gitu....ingat kan kalau dua dua tido awal boleh la aku melepak, beborak,minum kopi ke apa (depan tv la..)
si dani sebenarnya not well ada flu, so he cant really sleep well..masuk tido dah awal but pukul 10 camtu bangun..tak boleh tido..nangis..aku baru nak tengok House!!
so pujuk pujuk dia..last last dia nak main pulak...alief pun camtu..so there goes my new year celebration...last last aku bangun jugak pukul 2 pagi..nak buat susu kat dani...tgk beb tak tido lagi tengah mengemas old newspaper..so we sat down for a while. minum2..plan nak buat apa esok...

well...we did not have any specific plan this 1st Jan...went for breakfast. This shop is tucked in between workshops and other shops in AU3...we just passed by looking for a place to eat..time tu dah around 10 lebih kot..dah boring asyik makan tempat yg sama everytime...suprisingly the food was good jugak me and beb had mee sup..little alief had roti boom and milo ice...dani aku dah hantar gie rumah nenek nya ( just when we about to leave the house tadi, si alief tolak adik dia yang tgh seronok duduk dalam walker, kesian dani jelepuk jatuh, kepala kena lantai..biru dahi...kesian dani) dah makan we all head to carrefour..tak tau nak gie mana dah..just to get 1 dvd ultraman for alief...that's it!! had lunch at home..tapau lauk..ding dong dah pukul 5 gitu...terus went to my mom's house pick up dani pulak...
balik ke bt mas..aku dah start rasa boring pulak...today is the 1st day of 2008 but its just like any other day..routine...ntah!! we already in bt mas area...then alief pulak merengek nak balik rumah nenek dia..so we send him tido rumah nenek..camni la back and forth, back and forth.!!i just need to refresh my self....

ntah!

2007-12-31T16:15:00.000+08:00

ok this is my 2nd post for today...giler boring ni kat opis...
malas betul nak buat kerja ni..kepala otak ingat nak balik jer dah..
today my opis boleh balik 4.30...hope can beat all the jam, rasanya kat luar sana dah start building up esp around klcc area ni...
aku cuma nak beat the jam and be at home with the kiddos...as they grow bigger the more time i want to spend with them, rasa selalu tak cukup...mcm kesian diaorg selalu kena tinggal...kan best kalau aku boleh kerja sendiri..
idea business ada a few..nak take the risk tu yang malas..mmmm...

rasanya my life ni 70% is about work, then only 30% is about family and myself. I mean masa 24 hours tu mostly spend kat office...only few hours with family and weekends la...tak pernah cukup waktu...if i were given a choice i want to spend more time with the kids... and less time working!!! giler best...

ok la dah nak masuk time balik ni...hooray!! besok cuti....
2nd Jan will start another interesting episode...more work and assignments..BORING!!
apa nak buat malam ni yek???

Welcome 2008

2007-12-31T10:35:00.000+08:00

Fuyoh! sedar tak sedar dah masuk tahun baru 2008 dah..how time really flies...
and macam biasala when it come to new year the normal story bout it will be new resolutions and hope for a better year...
tapi tu lah kita always wait for new year for resolutions....i think its like a culture la kan? and it always ended with a big party to bid farewell to 2007.
for me..it always about watching the fireworks to welcome the new year. but dah bertahun tahun i tried to go somewhere to catch a glimpse of fireworks but failed. definitely i will not go to any of those new year countdown in town...tak sanggup rasanya nak meredah lautan ribuan manusia, mcm tak tentu hala just nak tgk bungaapi or just melepak...nak tgk konsert pun sori la ye....
the only memory i have was on the eve to celebrate 2000...ntah camne aku boleh sampai ke klcc that evening with some gf...dgn sapa pun dah tak ingat..pnut, ely kot yek..ok anyway time tu tgk hype pasal Y2K bagai..masayallah..punya la ramai org..samapi nak jalan pun susah..masa tu menyesal pulak..rasa nak balik aje...tak seronok pun..rasanya masa tu nak balik pakai public transport pun susah..dgn jam lagi..so i think...ingat ingat lupa ni..we all try to spend the night at any available hotel around..we all jalan sampai ke concorde nun...ooppsss..sampai kat situ je memori aku..lepas tu aku dah tak ingat dah..whether we managed to get a room or not...heheh..sori la..memori aku mmg kecik..
so after that i told myself, no more new year on the street...so the eve of 2001 we had a big party kat ascot.....that was 7 years ago...

ok la...this coming year 2008 means i will be 35 years old...wow!aku tak rasa 35 pun..infact how should a 35yrs old should feel? i believe u just need to be happy with your life and jangan stress..lot of family issues to plan this year..well definitely another baby is not in the list..hehhee...we will see about that!!
Alief will turn 3 years old..with a lot more challenging task for both me and Beb..he started to talk a lot and ask a lot now.., dani will turn 1 year in Feb and off course Beb will celebrating his birthday on 11th Jan..again this time he will be away in Sabah.

my job will be expiry in June..kalau contract tak renew...i will need to work hard for something that i just need to do for the family sake ( really need to push myself), and at the moment i'm looking for a new job with a better pay...
i can see next year my job will be interesting with my new exec will be in on 2nd Jan, and i will have some sort like consultant on board in middle of Feb, so with more heads we can do lots of stuffs and better planning & execution. Tapi tu lah now i already start to feel the pressure from The Management..takde mood nak kerja..

and on other hand this january tak sabar nak tunggu Heroes season 2, new season AMerican Idol...hehhe...

ok resolutions time!!
1. Solat penuhkan 5 waktu...
2. Be a better mom to Alief and Dani- loosen up,be more fun mom
3. Be a better spouse/partner and wife- laugh more, spend quality time just the both of us/ listen more/ talk more/be more affectionate..../ give more
4. Make a point to save..save and save
5. Kempis kan perut..( last year resolution ni..masih tak berjaya)
6. Eat more healthy food...less sugar,oily food
7. Exercise sikit..!!! malas betul la nak exercise ni
8. Need to find some time for myself by doing things that i like or i need i.e massages, facial, spa etc
9. get more and more cases
10.Read More books

ok cukup la tu 10 resolutions..and for the 5th time, quit smoking is not in my resolutions list..yeah!! i managed to kick off the habit for almost 5years now....lama dah yek... and year 2008 marked 15 years of friendship with my AMAB girls and 11 years of friendship with IB clan..Shidah & Lazli..kejap je yek!!

we shall review balik my resolutions ni in 6 months time and see if there is some progress..hehehee...

A Very Happy new Year to all....Enjoy!!

Semalam punya citer

2007-11-26T10:15:00.000+08:00

Tak kisah la whether ada org baca tak blog mek ni...mek pun sedar yang mek ni tak sefemes red diva tuh...blog pun tak dapat nak update daily..very the busy sekarang ni...kepala otak aku tgh sarat dgn proposal X'mas..yang tak approve approve lagi ni..tempat lain dah start naik dah decor x'mas...masalah nya every time aku submit porposal with budget mesti ada mende nak add on..so dah been almost 3 weeks i've been working on the proposal...and this is my 3rd submission..ari ni nak kena ammend lagi and kena submit today jugak..and mesti mesti! dapat kan apporval paling lambat by tomorrow..kalau tak x'mas aku start in january!!..

Lah...citer pasal x'mas pulak...i just want to let u all know that it takes me more than half hour or 1 hour to update blog...if its just about my daily routine macam makan apa lunch ari ni, pakai apa today ke opis, buat apa ari ni..aku rasa kejap je boleh update..tempek gambar 2-3..dah siap..

tapi i want to write about what inside my head, my view..tu yg kekadang kena pikir lama..bila ada interesting story to tell baru la aku update..not necessary everyday kan...well enough said...nanti aku membebel pasal x'mas di lain hari...

sebenarnya aku nak blog pasal demostration semalam on 25th Nov Sunday...it happened right smack in front of my office building..dalam news semua dok sebut nama building ni..tiba tiba popular pulak..hheeehe...dalam news mmg nampak it was betul2 kat main road yang ari ari aku lalu...

for those yang masih tido on sunday morning..or just dont bother to know..or mmg tak tau apa apa pun pasal demonstrations semalam..korang memang kaki tidor..heheee.. (aku memang suka tidor...anak anak aku je yang suka nak bangun seawal 530 kekadang..)

anyway nasib la baik aku tak jadi manager on duty semalam..sebab kalau tak memang aku plan tak nak dtg opis pun..hhehhee...tapi kalau la aku MOD semalam sure aku panic semacam kan! tengok lautan org ramai yang tengah hot hot belaka, dgn polis yang ramai..sure panjang berjela report yang aku kena buat psal semalam punya insiden.diaorng dah start gather as early as 6am on that sunday...marching towards British High Comission..tapi polis semua dah tutup entry ke jalan ampang..so they semua tak boleh nak hantar petisyen tu...jadi they semua stop point kat intersection jalan ampang and tun razak la...(opis aku la tu)polis suruh diaorg balik..tapi tak pedulikan diaorg...makin degil and makin naik hantu diaorg ni..so polis baling tear gas and sembur air kat crowd..masa ni la aku dgr ramai yang nak larikan diri nak masuk ke dalam City Square..tapi main entrance semua locked...polis stanby dalam centre and kat 7-11...abis la stock 7-11 semalam..polis standby so they all tak masuk ke dalam..i wonder camne la situation semalam..aku dgr mmg ramai tenant tutup kedai semalam...

ok..back to the petisyen..tu sebenarnya petisyen dari Hindu Rights Action Force (HINDRAF) to Queen Elizabeth II to appoint a Queen's Counsel to represent the Indian community in a class action suit against the British Government for bringing Indians as labourers to the then Malaya and exploiting them.

The suit, filed at the Royal Courts of Justice in London by lawyer P. Waythamoorthy in August, seeks compensation of up to US$4 trillion (RM13.5 trillion).

Ni semua citer lama yang berbangkit la ni...and personally i think, they shouldnt be stop to hand the petisyen...let them..just monitor and ensure they all tak buat kacau to public macam semalam..bila they all been denied the entry to hand over the petisyen tu yang they naik hantu kat polis and terus la mengamuk mengamuk...ntah la...it shouldnt end up like that la kan...last last petisyen tu di fax kan aje ke Queen Elizabeth...ok la good luck to them..kalau la dapat compensation RM13.5 triliion tu nanti kaya la kaum india kat mesia ni...tapi kalau korang ada 50/50 chance nak dapat duit tu (kalau dibahagi kan kepada 100,000 org) dapat la dalam 1juta sorang..eh betul ker aku kira ni..trillion ada berapa kosong ah? selalu kira sampai 1 million jer...oh trillion ada 12 zeros...ha lebih kurang la..sorang dapat 1 juta..korang nak tak join demonstration mcm semalam tuh?

kalau aku...mmmm...confuse ni..kalau confirm dapat 1 juta aku pegi kot...tapi nak like said 50/50 chance dah tu tahun bila pulak dapat kan..maybe aku prefer duduk rumah tidor or buat scramble egg kat alif...hehhee...actually on that sunday morning we all went to titiwangsa..not knowing that the situation along jalan amapang dah worse since morning..we all left titiwangsa at about 10.45..terus nail AKLEH..till ampang exit aku dah nampak 2-3 truck merah polis and beratus polis beratur tepi jalan..stoppin all the indian people from entering the city...baru la aku realise how bad the situation was...when i saw on tv that afternoon..mmg confirm..opis aku terjebak..hehhee

so pagi ni..aku round round sekeliling building ni kot kot ada apa kesan from yesterday...amazingly all look perfectly normal..just entrance door City Square penuh dgn hand print and glass door tu mcm sumbing sikit few area..other than that it all good..

aku belum dapat korek citer sebenarnya dari chief security officer aku lagi..nanti lunch aku nak dgr story version dia pulak...nanti aku update kat blog aku yang boring ni hehhee...

ok la dah almost 1 hour aku kat sini...porposal x'mas aku tak siap lagi...nak kena submit the final final today...harap harap dapt la answer today..aku dah macam mad woman dah running around sorang sorang nak organise x'mas activities ni...rasa macam nak give up jer...tension mek!! HO HO HO...mery x'mas..

psst: ada sesapa nak jadi santa?

Change

2007-11-16T18:04:00.000+08:00

What does the word change meant to you?
Takut dgn word change ni sebenarnya..as a human we dont like changes, sebab we are not doing things that we used to and doing things that we are not sure of the outcome. But if it is a good change we have to have the courage to do it and most important to be determined and stick to it.

The biggest changes that i have done in my life (as far as i can remember)is asking people to call me Maria..it might not sound like a big change..tukar nama pun a big change ka? well..since i was in standard 1..friends used to call me AYU!!! Yess...believe it or not...the truth is i never like people to call me by this name..ntah kawan aku yang mana ntah masa aku kecik kecik dulu yang start panggil aku dgn nama tu...but whenever i introduced myself as AYU i just felt like someone else and not my true self..macam berlakon..hehhee.

but until i was 18yrs old people still call me by that name.i never had a boyfriend when i was in hi school or even when i completed my diploma (i was about 23yrs old that time. Never had experienced cinta monyet....but almost all of my friend ada bf la...well maybe that is my choice la jugak..i always thought that schoolboys are immature, dunno nothing bout love, and seriously i felt awkward whenever i think bout relationship during school time..(i'm very sure i'm not gay so whatever hehhee)what do we talk as a couple? how are supposed to behave? mcm mcm la

so, i always felt inferior with myself,i'm ugly, not attractive, not funny, always the last in a group, more to a follower, ikut jer cakap kawan aku...i really felt that i let people take advantage of me..sebab i cant say no and i dont know how to speak up my mind, what i felt, my idea, my opinion, i'm shy....and the list go on (i wish they have oprah show at that time...to inspire ;)

and after SPM, and i started to felt all alone sebab semua geng time sekolah dah go their own way..ada yg kerja, sambung belajar, and i am all alone dont really quite know what to do with my life..really lost at that time...i started thinking that i need to be myself or at least find the real me..who am I? so i started with asking people to call me Maria....

Believe it or not it really gave me a big impact..i felt like a new person all together. Seriously, i pun tak tau where was the energy and confidence came from. its like the very opposite of AYU (macam layu je kan, mcm twin.).ooppss..forgot la i'm a Gemini the twin...hehhee...i started to speak up my mind, learn to be more confident...and that was indeed the biggest change for me so far...during my diploma and my degree time...lectures even said i'm an outspoken person, not afraid to face failure...bla bla..

banyak lagi nak citer pasal changes ni..sambung besok besok pulak ye..Change part 2!!

cheers

BOHSAN!!

2007-11-15T14:39:00.000+08:00

U know i'm a Gemini..and org gemini ni memang nya cepat boring and tak boleh buat mende yang routine...and kononya org gemini ni creative..which i doubt so la...kekadang mmg aku byk idea tapi always tak reti nak translate..
i do have a point but sometimes tak reti nak make it a point..paham ke ni? see my point? hehhee...

at current moment i really felt bohsan+fed-up+my otak tired+unappreciated+ with my job...for almost 3 years now, all i'm doing is thinking and thinking of new ideas and marketing plan for activities/events/promotion/publicity/advertisement...and now i'm just drained out of ideas. Tak abis abis pikir camne nak get people to come to CSQ ni...isshhh....and Today i really had it...dah malas nak pikir lagi...i felt that i have failed and and the best part is for almost 6 month now i'm all alone running around my own dept like a headless chicken...lots of limitation because i'm alone...assistant tak dapat lagi...interview semua tak suitable or aku yg particular..hehee...

rasa mcm just nak quit my job now and cari kerja yg tak payah nak pikir banyak..nak develop idea ke apa..kerja kat starbucks ke kan best jugak kan...just nak kan pocket money..go to work,buat kopi, senyum senyum dgn customer, abis time balik...aaarrggg!! Tension mek....

sorang colleague aku dah berenti semalam last day...dia dapat kerja kat Pavilion KL...mmmm..lagi la aku tension....so depressing bila aku pegi Pavilion ari tu.. tu belum pegi Gardens lagi ni...

so macammana nak hilangkan rasa bohsan aku ni....really feel demotivated la today...
Sapa rasa tak bosan dgn kerja diaorg? Tok Ti kot ek? buat apa yg dia suka, dpt byk duit, boleh gie travel around the world, boleh pakai beg LV latest, arrggg...lagi tension la mek camni..hehheee...

kalau tension apa korang buat?
Try click website www.bored.com...website camni pun ada org buat yek..dah bosan sgt la tu

need to have my coffee break now...

Bird's Eye View

2007-11-10T12:33:00.000+08:00

This is the highest level u can get to view the tallest twin tower in the world. Tak caya? This is at level 63 Empire Tower..and the best part is u can view 360 degree of KL...i even can see the quartz next to Bt Mas..
I dont think you can get a better and highest view mcm ni anywhere else... nak bet? hehee... thinking it will be so beautiful to watch the fireworks from here..nak nak fireworks from KLCC...mmm..!!!

ari tu ada org buat video shooting for Tourism Malaysia. Off course aku bukan modelnya la kan...

Transit at Cherating

2007-11-09T10:33:00.000+08:00

Try main main buat collage ni using shutterfly. This was taken at Cherating on Raya eve, on our way back to Dungun. We stopped for a while to do our cat strecth. We left KL around 11.30am and we reached Cherating around 4.00..takla jauh sgt kan. Then we head to kemaman (another 20 mins) for buka posa at Salim's brother punya rumah...lepas buka main bunga api..and we left his house about 10.30pm straight to Dungun...

Ni mcm citer dah basi kan..citer pasal raya..
Raya pun dah sampai hujung hujung ni...
Busy kat opis..takde masa nak update blog..aku guna PC kat opis..kalau kay rumah takde masa..

so ok...alaaa..ada org nak jumpa aku pulak..so gotta go..
will update later

more pics at the beach

2007-10-31T09:41:00.000+08:00

Raya Story

2007-10-30T16:53:00.000+08:00

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After i looked through all the pictures taken during raya...tak de satu pun gambar me and the kids and salim...kiranya tak de gambar raya la tahun ni...reason being sebab masa sibuk nak ambik gambar me, salim and the kids, si baby Dani buat hal..dia dah penat +ngantuk+panas so he cried and cried..so susah nak ambik gambar..
maybe aku kena 'korek' from org lain punya camera..maybe ada gambar candid...and takde gambar alif and dani wearing baju melayu...mcm tak best la..tak de gambar raya tahun ni...

tapi on the 2nd day raya morning after breakfast we brought the kids to this one playground fronting the beach...balik raya kat dungun ni rasa macam gie holiday pulak..everyday gie beach...so peaceful and relaxing...and here are some nice pics taken that raya morning..kira ada la gambar raya just without the traditional raya attire...

It was a perfect morning...nice weather, bright sunshine..the beach was beautiful, the scenery was awesome, nobody else were there except for 4 of us..i guess org org dungun masih tido or kekenyangan makan nasi dagang on 1st day raya... Alief sibuk chasing the cat.. i love this pic...cuma the backlight je make it blurry

it was about 9 something and both kids just woke up...dah lama aku tak balik kampung..almost 3 yrs kot...
i always love looking at the sea whenever i'm here..even the beach is not that bersih but it always gives you this peaceful feeling..and the fact that we are here for our raya holiday was even better. We been busy looking for time for a holiday..contemplating whether to bring the kids or not..i guess this is a good break for all of us

Life back to Normal

2007-10-30T16:19:00.000+08:00

Dapat jugak akhirnya i update my blog ni....almost 1 week my computer in the office buat hal...at last today they replaced it with a new one..Yeah...
Maybe after 1 week long Raya break, then loads of work need to be done once i'm back last monday 22/10..computer aku kena heart attack!! terus mati...
Anyway after almost 2 weeks Raya the spirit of Syawal still can be feel..but slowly faded away..last week jer banyak betul open house invitation..in fact my mom pun buat jugak last saturday..tapi byk invitation kena tepis..sebab tak dapat nak allocate time..dah tu most of my girlfriends ke Kluang this weekend attending a wedding...IShh..teringat Kluang Station punya roti bakar...

And life is back to normal after 1 week tiring but seronok Raya break, talking about breakfast and what's for Lunch and dinner. To go through traffic jam..crazy traffic jam towards the end of the raya holiday...and off course unfinished work in the office.

Lots of thing to blog about esp about raya..eh tak outdated lagi kan citer pasal raya..Raya kan sebulan!! and nak post some pics.. but i guess this is enough for now..still excited dapat computer baru ni...Hehee

Lots of love

Yesterday!

2007-10-09T14:42:00.000+08:00

I wanted to write something about AMAB since last week lagi, but since my internet was down since thursday last week, today only i have the chance to write. Lagipun dah tak de mood nak kerja ni...

Believe it or not this was taken somewhere 8 years ago. It was New Year Party to celebrate the coming of New Year 2001. Felt just like yesterday...OH! Sapa lagi DIva dalam ni Linda Lam or Mummy Merah? I was 26 years old in this pic, kurus la mek!! I had a great time and i guess so does the rest of AMAB...the funny part is masa tu all our BF now semua dah lenyap dek zaman..except for cinta sejati Linda Lam and Zul and also Juleya D'Amor and Ray.
Sebenarnya kat belakang gambar ni ada kelibat si Radhi..drag abis malam tuh!!
This is one of the happiest and joyous moment in our friendship. Off course if i were to talk more there are so many fond memories that i will always remember and cherish.

And looked at us now...still the same kan? hehee...just that aku dah gemuk!!
Girls..we are still the same old us and I'm still the same old me...
Rindu nak melepak cam dulu...

Lots of love from me...

Checklist

2007-10-09T09:37:00.000+08:00

Tak boleh nak access internet for the past few days..baru ok today.
Anyway, i'm not in the mood to work dah..another 3 days for Hari raya and tomorrow is my last day working before i go for my long raya leave. Yahoo..i need a break!! Raya as usual la..nothing much but excited for the kids la.
And its time for me to do and update my Raya Checklist

1. To reload Touch N Go
2. Reload my prepaid- Yes! I'm still using prepaid ler...
3. Service Keta
4. Tukar duit raya
5. Raya hair do- maybe too late for that now...after raya kot!
6. Ambik baju kurung
7. Alter alief and dani's seluar baju melayu... panjang la pulok!
8. Charge all battery camera and video cam; and bawak all the charger
9. Make sure to download all pics before balik kg.
10. Masukkan semua songkok, butang baju melayu dalam bag in advance...selalu last minit lupa!

mmmm.. apa lagi yek! tu je kot for now...nak kemas bag pulak..and to make sure all the clothes, milk and diapers enough for the kids.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all...Maaf Zahir Batin..
Insyaallah we meet again after raya..safe journey

lots of love

As promised

2007-10-02T12:37:00.001+08:00

As promised, gambar bukak posa with geng AMAB last Saturday kat Tropicana. I told u guys i'm gonna put our pics in my blog. Anyway, finally dapat jugak aku upgrade blog aku ni...touch up sikit kasi best, and i personally think this is much better than blog mak diva merah nun..hehhee...after bertahun tahun aku try upgrade blog ni..today aku curi curi masa kat opis...nampaknya aku kena rajin la mengupdate blog aku ni ye...banyak kerja kat opis tapi malas..the truth is i'm already in Raya mood.isn't it too soon? well tak lama lagi dah sebenarnya..lagi 10 hari beb...

Nadia, girl and shahiza cant make it this year due to other commitment. Gambar ni kat luar so agak blur sikit la...Ok bout our buka posa ari tu..Food selection mmg banyak gilos..macam macam ada grilled food, steamboat, rojak, warong thai, mee hailam, mee bandung, mee goreng, kuew teow goreng, lala, fried prawn, lamb, dessert...bla..bla..but of all i like the kuew teow and the fried prawn and also the choc cake..sedap betul...ALAMAK!! lupa la ambik gambar food yg aku makan ari tu..hehhehe...
sembang sembang normal stuffs including sessi mengumpat mek merah sorang tuh..hehee..tetap!! its time for all of to catch things up, bukannya selalu dapat meet all of them..everybody is busy with commitment masing masing..
aku off course with work and family la...kekadang rindu nak lepak lepak with friend mcm dulu...ingat masa kat subang lepaking kat sri melur...

eh..mana linda lam? hehee..lupa nak invite dia yek...aku dah lama betul tak jumpa si lindot...dah nak masuk 3 tahunla..last sekali aku jumpa dia masa dia make up aku kawin heheee

That night only Pnut bawak bb..Cute little Hajar..asyik senyum aje...And when all of us talking..she will look at you as if she understand,then she will giggle...cute betul anak pnut...luckily she's not showing her tantrum that night..we say farewell and goodbye at 9.00 that night...

Insyallah, we meet again for bukak posa next year...with more geng ye!!
Anyway, thanks to Lazli James for organising. Lepas ni jumpa for Raya open house pulak..
Guys..balik raya kat kampung berhati hati ok...

Lots of love

Happyland

2007-08-24T10:40:00.000+08:00

Heard a news from someone that a friend of hers just found out that her 4 yrs old one and only daughter had cancer! Already in stage 4...the girl just had chemo yesterday.
As i heard their conversation over the phone, my friend couldn't hold her tears,and give her friend words or encouragement and prayers. Asked what would the daughter want as a gift...the mother said..."just buy her stickers, that would make her very happy". I just want to make her happy everyday"

Thinking of what she have said, it just make me realise that you need to be happy everyday no matter what situation you are in...imagine the good things...the other side of a story (remember there is always 2 side of a story) our fate is unpredictable, one day death will come our way just a matter of how soon or how late. Life is too precious to be wasted with anger and sadness.

I always sometimes very serious when it comes to everyday routine, send the kids, go to work, fetch them after work, go to sleep...and frankly it does made me tired and bored (mentally).
Sometimes blow and whistle my anger towards alief...and how i forgot that alief is another human being with feelings and expressions..he understand what is love, anger and hate. I promise myself i will be a better mother, show him what is love, to make him happy everyday...for i believe it will make me happy as well.

I promise to loose a bit and to put my feet up whenever i'm at home especially when B is around. To laugh, talk silly and funny, to make you happy everyday, no matter what. Not to take small things seriously, to live with joy and shines in our heart, for the love i have for you, alief and dani...and for a natural botox for myself..hehhe...yesss..i just want to be happy everyday....life is too short to think of all the grievances and problems...

enjoy

Angels from heaven

2007-08-17T16:19:00.000+08:00

apa apa ntah

2007-08-17T12:58:00.000+08:00

ayo yo....lama giler tak post kat blog ni...
all the time now spend with the kids, family and off course busy with work lagi

and what made me feel like to write today is becoz a story that i got from a fren of mine.
it goes something like this....jeng jeng jeng
ely have an opismate yang ala ala perasan best..she called her self red diva
somehow her boring blog has won Blog idol 2006..and in one of her post she posted ely's gold colour shoe, that she wore to opis and made a bit of a comment to it...
off course ely felt offended with her remarks...and this minah kampung somehow rasa gelabah when she found out that ely read her comment and terus made a harsh remark bout ely....isssh...issh......the power of blog!!!
now i wonder...ada ker orang baca blog mek???

2005-05-19T18:16:00.000+08:00

i do

2005-05-19T18:15:00.000+08:00

love

100th Days Annivesary

2005-05-19T17:49:00.000+08:00

Today is our 100th days together in a marriage
100 days of happinnes and love
100 days of patience and bless

Hope for another 100 years of love together

B..thank you for being a great husband for 100 days

for the love and support

thanks for 100 days of understanding..

i pray that we will have another 100 days together as husband and wife

pray that we will stay in love always for another 100 years

i want to be with you always B..

i love you more today..and there's no word that can ever explain

how much i love you..i will not take your love for granted

and i hope we cherish each other and the marriage forever

for more that will come our way..

thank you for being there for me..to love and to hold

Happy 100th days Annivesary

i would like to dedicate a song to you

"The Look of Love"

The Look of Love is in your eyes

The look your smile can't disguise

The look of love

Is saying so much more, than words could ever say

And what my heart has heard

Well it takes my breath away

I can hardly wait to hold you

Feel my arms around you

How long i have waited

Waited just to love you. now that i have found you

You've got the look of love

Its on your face

A look that time can't erase

Be mine tonight

Let this be just the start of so many nights like this

Let's take a lover vow and then seal it with a kiss

I can't hardly wait to hold you

Feel my arms around you

How long i have waited, waited just to love you

Now that i have found you

Don't ever go

I love you so

P/S..i love u so much

2005-04-28T14:13:00.000+08:00

Heard a song today
The lyrics really said what i wanted to say..

"kau tahu betapa ku sayang padamu
hanya bidadari sebagai ganti
hanya takdir menentukan ia..
oh belaian jiwa."

couldn't find the right wordsright now
to tell you just how much i love you
i might not good in saying it
but i do love you...truly

2005-04-19T09:19:00.000+08:00

B went to Sabah yesterday's morning for 2 weeks
and yesterday i already 30 weeks..meaning i have approx another 10 more weeks to go
that is like soon...and by the time B come back home from Sabah end of this week
i'm gonna be 32 weeks...that is 8 months....
my tummy sure will grow bigger at that time..
and will look even more big and bloated...
and thinking about the delivery..it just make me uneasy
the truth i'm scared and vervous bout the whole thing...

i really hope that B will be around when its time for me to deliver
and i really hope he will be in the labor room with me..
i don't know what to expect on that day...

my baby starts kicking hard this few days..
sometimes i can see my tummy moves...
should start counting the 10 movements already by now..

normally i don't miss B that much during the day time
but when it comes the night time and there's nobody at home
i started to get lonely and sad...
nobody to talk to...nobody to hug and kiss
i miss the warm love and hugs..
and B will only be back at the end of the month
can't wait to see him again...
I love u very much hubby...

B..pls take a good care of yourself
i miss you and i love u..

feelings

2005-03-07T15:33:00.000+08:00

i am now 23wks pregnant
my tummy is growing so rapidly for the past one month..
i feel so pregnant now..i look pregnant as well
my tummy is so round..and i'm getting heavier
i get exhausted whenever i walk a lot or climb stairs
back ache is normal now...and its kindda difficult to toss around in bed now..
and sometimes its difficult to get up...

at this point i need to be calm
not to worry to much..
need to relax..take care of myself
i drive to office now...can't stand the walking to and fro the lrt station..

starting to feel small kicks in my tummy..
today i felt it again at about 250pm..
i wonder what he is doin inside my tummy
how is it living inside a tummy..hehe..
its a weird feelings...something moving and alive inside of me
small part of me..can't wait to look and hold him..

still trying to take a grip of what's happening
stil can't believe...it happens so fast...
we gonna have a baby...our baby..together
the love we have for each other now will be shared with our baby..
we gonna be a parents..i'm gonna be a mother
and you gonna be a father...how our life will change
with this four letter word...
the whole experience is so new for both of us

i understand if youcan't be with me all the time
throughout my pregnancy..maybe the timing is not right
it's my fault that i didn't found out a bit earlier..
then things will be a whole lot different for us..
i'm sorry for messing things up for u...
till now i feel guilty that i put you through this tough time
this is the feeling that i'll carry with me for a long time
and i know how u wish that this is not happening..

but believe me...i feel the pressure more
because i have to go on with the pregnancy till the end
i can't gave up now..i have just to carry on with it..
with all the changes..in my life, my body, trying to adjust and adapt to all these changes sometimes made me stress out..

i can't help but feeling scared for this is my first experience
i don't know what to expect...
its ok if you cant be around
i know its not because you want to..but u can't
i know you want to go through this pregnancy with me..
i understand...i tak mintak banyak from you
just your support, understanding of what i'm going through
for your unconditional love and some excitement
will do me good to go through this pregnancy..
i really hope that you can be around on the day of labor
you gonna be the one who gonna 'azan' kan our baby
you will get the first look at our baby
to hold him with love..
u know i love you so much...
and i know you love me as much as i do
but this is a tough time for both us..
being away with each other...
i miss you every seconds...
this is our sacrifice for our future

i hope that we will be great parents..to love and to share
i want us to keep on loving each other for all the odds
stay in love until the end of our life..
i pray for our love to get stronger each day throughout the years
i want to be happily married to you
i want this marriage to something that we proud of
i'm glad that i have you in my life as my husband
i want to be a good wife and mother..
i want to be able to love you and to feel your love forever

B...i love you more today...i want to be with you till the end
i can't thank you enough for your love and all that you've shown me..
thank you for giving me the chance to love you...

happy 1st and 1 week annivesary

2005-02-14T13:52:00.000+08:00

My dear B..

Just a year ago i've met with a wonderful man
and who would have thought that this is the man
i married to a week ago.. who have change my life forever
i love you more today and i can't seems to find
the right words to best described how i really feel inside for you
and how much you mean to me
with so much coming our way..
Today i'm so glad that i have you in my life
I thank God for you
Thank you for all that you've done
and thank you for all the love you have shown me
Let's cherish the love we have
looking forward for more good times with you
and i'm so glad that we've found each other that day
B...for better or worse i'm with you forever

i love you
happy 1st & 1 week togetherness

my journey

2005-02-14T12:40:00.000+08:00

its been quite a while since i last blogged
so many things has happened for the past 5 months
my life has change termendously
and today i still can't believe most of what had happened
i guess we all must always be prepared for God's plans
what's in store for us..

entering into the new year was exciting for me
with a new job, a new man in my life
i knew things will be better
2005 will be a better year for me
i'm turning 32 years old this May and so many questions
starts to wandering around my mind

we went to Cherating on the eve of New Year
its just about a week after the worst tsunami disaster
the catostrophe does made every human alive to grateful
we had a long talk that night and i was so close in asking him
whether he would like to get married?
but the words just dont comes out right
so i just wait for another good time to ask

i can feel the love getting stronger between us
i love him dearly and i can see us together in the future
i just can't find the right words...

as the month goes by
B got a job offer that he consider a 'big break' for him
i'm so happy and proud of him
he's been wondering what to do with his life for quite some time now...this could be the beginning of something good
and not long after that i found out that i'm pregnant...

something that i never exepected would happened
i found it out a bit too late..i'm already close to 19wks
i still can hear the doctor's voice when he told me that i'm pregnant
and the moment i saw my baby through the machine i was so shocked
i'm lost for words..i dont know what to feel
B is all in my mind at that moment
lots of questions went through my mind
suddenly i'm so scared and nervous i dont know what to do
something is growing in my tummy..another life
something that belong to me & B
a part of him is now with me...

when i told him that night he was shocked
he suggested that we get married as quickly as we can
deep inside I'm not sure about having the baby
i'm so scared of all the circumstances
of all the tense and confusion
we finally got maried a week after i told him the news

and now we are married
still can't believe that we are now husband and wife
my journey has begin
we are now preparing for the baby's arrival
and all of these happened in less than 5 months

of all that happened
i'm so glad that i have B in my life
to love and to cherish...

i love you so much

2004-09-22T15:08:00.000+08:00

the bridesmaid

2004-09-22T15:07:00.001+08:00

friends

2004-09-22T15:07:00.000+08:00

smile

2004-09-22T15:06:00.000+08:00

the moment

2004-09-22T15:05:00.000+08:00

signing

2004-09-22T15:04:00.000+08:00

waiting

2004-09-22T15:03:00.000+08:00

pnut's wedding

a marriage

2004-09-06T16:30:00.000+08:00

went to one of my close friend's wedding over the weekend
she looks beautiful in her white nikah dress waiting patiently for her groom to arrive
it was about 9pm on friday night and all of us keep flashing our camera
tyring to get a good angle..and a good picture of ourselves
few photos with the bride...well this is our last photos together before she actually get married
i can see the parent's face shines with smile everytime guests say congrats
they must be very happy tonight..for their one and only daughter is getting married
and a few of us that were there (me, afiq,ely, and nadia) still can't believe that p'nut is getting married...kalau dah jodoh..
yupp..her jodoh is here...and it makes us wondering where is our jodoh?
in our late 20's people around us keep asking "Bila lagi nak kawin?"..(when are u getting married?)..that will be a normal question asked in every family gatherings..
just don't know what to answer them? so normally you just smile and walk away..
but deep inside..you just wish you have the answer
how can u tell if this is the man u going to marry?
how do you know if its the time to get married?
it doesn't matter at what age...u just knew it?
i still have not found the answers to all the above

so today i'm happy for pnut and sehu for tying the knot
they just knew that it is the time for them to get marry
and they finally found each other and decided to live their life together
such a beautiful thing..lots of love
they ending a phase of their life and starting a new one tonight
a marriage is such a great thing..
a kind of happiness that can never be felt by us the single ones
and today i loose a friend but i'm not sad
instead i'm happy that she have found her happiness
all of us still going to be friends
but we going to meet even lesser
that's the cycle...

one day i want to get married to the man that i love
and to a man that loves me unconditionally
a man that will love me till the day i die
with whom i will share all my happiness, and sorrow
someone who will be there for me through all kind of wheather
a man who loves me for who i am
and willing to accept my weakness and flaws
a man that able to give me the true meaning of love
a man that make me feel a whole when we're together
and with someone who want to be with me forever
for i know i deserve someone who loves me
someone who appreciates me as a woman who walks beside them..
and not behind them..
and for the person i am..i know i deserve happiness
everybody does

maybe i've found him
maybe one day...one day

firasat

2004-07-29T16:57:00.000+08:00

its been a while since i blog in
few days back B asked me if i love him..
i was shocked to hear the question came out from his mouth
i was dazed..i had to asked myself..what was he saying?
i try to understand the words..it was unclear then
when i'm about to ask him to repeat the question..
then i realised that he just asked me if i love him...
i didn't expect that he'll ask me..i'm stunned so i just keep quite
try to find the right words...i just can't get myself together and tell him
"I love you"
its not that i don't..it just that how can you tell if you're in love
how can you tell if what you felt is love
my swollen heart still fighthing with emotions..
is this the love that i'm looking for
is this love...is love what i feel?
i don't know...love is such a big word
and i don't want just saying it without the true meaning of it
i'm afraid to love for i'm afraid of getting hurt
i'm afraid that B will leave..or this is not meant to be
so i'm afraid to say it....
then i asked him the same question..
and he did not answer the question...waiting for my answer
i asked him again the next day...no answer
till yesterday...he gave a gift as an answer to my question
i was shocked...he gave me a ring!!!
it's beautiful..no..its not like he's proposing me or anything
but the symbolic meaning of a ring...
he said"this is my answer to your question.."
i wore a ring given by my x for 5 years...and now he wants to replace that ring
he want me to wear a new ring...given by him...
so today i'm wearing a new ring...thank you B...
i dont know what is he thinking at this moment..but i can feel the love now
i can feel the love from him....and i started to feel the love flowing in my heart

'Dan hanya waktu yang mungkin bisa
Memahami apa yang terjadi
Apa yang kurasa...
Apa yang kaurasa
Adalah cinta yang tak bisa
Dijelaskan dengan kata-kata"-Mistikus Cinta

part of a lyric from "Firasat"-Marcell

Akhirnya bagai sungai yang mendambakan samudra
Ku pasti tahu kemana kan ku bermuara
Semoga ada waktu...sayangku
Kupercaya alam pun turut berbahasa
Ada makna disebalik semua petanda
Firasat ini..rasa rindukah atau tanda bahaya
aku pun sedari
Engkau la firasat hati...

2004-07-29T16:51:00.000+08:00

the ring

2004-07-15T14:37:00.000+08:00

chillin

Birthday

2004-07-15T13:29:00.000+08:00

Yesterday we celebrated one of my close girlfriend's Birthday
just felt like yesterday we celebrated her's..and with a larger crowd
but last night just four of us...well blame it on the rain or maybe because
it fall on tuesday...
here we are at our favourite spot...this used to be our usual hang out place
and now we can't even recall when was the last time we were here...
with loud music from the band as the background, we started to wonder is it always this noisy and loud?
suddenly the four of us fell somewhat out of time..and out of place
can't seems to find the right move to dance...
are we experiencing the early signs of adulthood..hehe?
we just stare at each other most of the time...trying to read each other mind...
we started inventing our own sign language..try to read lips and we end up writing notes on tissue papers...

looking back the years, this is where we hang out most of our weekned at
this is where i met my x bf for 6 years...this is where we dance to the music till morning..and was cool to dance on the table, this is the place where we met old friends..this is just da-place to be...lots of memories...we dont mind the smoke and sweat..so much energy...
still this is our favourite place...

and looking back at ourselves and the friendship that we have for 11years
time seems to move so fast..
even we don't see each other often nowadays..but we always try to meet up at least once a week or twice a month..
and now we kindda hang out more at quite and relax spot
without have to wear those skimpy and sexy clothes (thanks to all the extra fats)
dont have to struggle with the smoke..but i have to admit that we kindda talk loud sometimes..hehe..
and like last night even just the four of us were there to celebrate Ely's birthday
its a day that should be remembered and celebrate with friends and loved ones...
and we know we are there for each other for any kind of weather
even when we have more gray hair, more wrinkles on our face, less time to spend
we all know we love this friendship..
love you all AMAB girls...

to Fiq, Ely, Nadia, P'nut, Girl, Sha, Linda, Jue..thanks for the friendship
and for the rest of my friends; lazli, radi,honey, nado,ewok,herman,naha,not to mention..nana, dell, tonot,and a whole lot more bunch of my friends from different circles of people..love you all too...
and to a best,close friend,my joy, my happiness, my strength,my sunshine...B
thankyou for all the love you've shown me...

2004-07-14T17:10:00.000+08:00

the cake

2004-07-14T17:04:00.000+08:00

Birthday Girl

2004-07-14T17:01:00.000+08:00

Happy 29th Birthday to Ely..Hope all your dreams will come true...a year older a year wiser

Mistikus Cinta

2004-07-09T15:26:00.000+08:00

Sometimes you just don't know how to tell someone what
You feel inside for them..
You just can't seems to find the right words to best describe
the feeling inside you...
i do believe that action speaks louder than words...
B,I hope you know how i felt for you at this moment
by the touch of my hand, the way i look at you, the warmth of my hug
Is this love?

One of my favourite song from Dewa...Mistikus Cinta (Mistique of Love)

Ketika pertama kali
Jiwamu ingin selalu dekat
Dengan jiwaku yang belum bisa
Menterjemahkan segala
Arti pertemuan ini
Arti cumbu rayu ini
Yang mungkin bisa memushnahkan
Kenyataan hidup yang terjadi

Ketika jiwamu
Merasuk ke dalam
Aliran darahku dan meracuniku
Ketika jiwamu, memeluk hatiku
Dan biarkan jiwaku cumbui jiwamu

Ketika kamu, aku
Melebur menjadi satu
Dan hanya waktu yang mungkin bisa
Memahami apa yang terjadi

Apa yang sedang kurasa
Apa yang sedang kau rasa
Adalah cinta yang tak bisa
Dijelaskan dengan kata-kata

Thank you

2004-06-28T17:36:00.000+08:00

Say thank you to the one you love today
because you might not have the chance to say it tomorrow
you don't know what you have till its gone
and thank you is another way to say "i love you"

this is for you B
I just have to write something today
To let you know what’s been wondering in my mind lately
Its been such a great time to be around you
Its always been warm to be in your arms
You’ve lifted me up everytime we kissed
You made me smile when I feel like the world is not on my side
You made me laugh even when there is no reason to
You stand beside me when I feel like giving up
You made it easier for me to walk through the rough times
You gave me strength to be stronger everyday
And above all you’ve made me feel loved by you.

You might not notice how all the things you’ve done make me feel
You might not notice that you have made a difference in my life
You might not notice that you have made me love you a little everyday
I do feel the love you have whenever we together
And as a return I want you to know that I really appreciate all that you have done and to all that you have shown me.
And at the same time I want you too to feel a little love I have inside me
and I try to tell you that I also feel the same way you do
Its just sometimes I might not good in saying it…

As much as I love to see us developed more feelings and
As much as I love to see us together for a longer period of time
And even sometimes I wish that you always be around me to love me more
I’m just afraid to love again…afraid of getting hurt
But that’s the risk that I’m willing to take
I’m taking this chance to be with you
Just give me some time to love again
Let’s take little small steps everyday and see where it will bring us…

Thank you for all that you have done and shown me
Thank you for make me feel what I’m feeling today
Thank you for being around

2004-06-25T17:35:00.000+08:00

sense

what is love?

2004-06-25T16:01:00.000+08:00

i told someone few days ago that i have developed more feelings for him. Then i paused...mmm..feelings? what exactly do i feel for him? love?
i don't know if this what people call love...what is love really? what is the meaning of a true love?
how can you tell if you're in love or what you feel is love or something else...
is it love or just a feeling of needing someone? how about companionship? can a companionship exist without love...just a company to comfort us, when we need a shoulder to cry on?

at the end i'm not sure if love is what i felt for him. But it feels like it...
so what is love and how can you tell if its love?
i guess there will be 1001 answers for that..love have different meanings to others.

For me, love bring different menning everyday, love varies
love is like the art of baking a cake
You can bake any cake you like
Just change the flavour, colours, taste
it can be a cheesecake, chocolate, strawberry, blueberry, carrot or mixed fruit cake
but remember the basic ingredient and method to bake a good cake
the flour, fresh eggs, sugar, the right temperature and the time
and above all the most important of all is the mould...
you can't bake a cake without a mould
be it square, rectangular or round

love is the mould...to hold things together
honesty, appreciation, care is the flour, sugar and eggs
laughter, happy times, joy, tears, bad time are the flavour
you can choose to have a cheesecake today or chocholate cake tomorrow

that is love for me
And how about you? what is love for you..